update on herbalife diet and Venting about the past week of HELL

As of today 6-27-13 I have lost 16 pounds doing the herbalife diet, so I'm proud of myself no matter what horrible monsters  might have to say.
I have not been doing it every single day, I have days that are "cheat" days, I save those days for days I'm going to be out and about and stuff, but even on those days I try to watch what I'm eating and not snack throughout the day.  With the sleeve my problem isn't a big meal in one sitting, cause i really can't eat a really big meal with the sleeve, but you can end up snacking throughout the day which is not good, I have been trying to avoid snacking since I've been doing the herbalife diet, there have been times when I have gotten upset and snacked, unfortunately I'm an emotional eater and so that really sucks, but luckily this time it only lasted 2 days and I was able to pick myself back up and brush myself off and tell myself no I don't want monsters to cause me pain and put me down anymore, I'm better then them, and I need to just concentrate on myself and be proud of myself, and not worry about what anyone else thinks of me.  People that only know how to put other people down obviously have very low self esteem and self worth.
I have been through a really tough week this past week, first one of my poor dogs gets horribly hurt, she sliced her side open and we never found what she hurt herself on and we looked all over the yard and house, luckily she's doing ok, she got stitches and stuff but she's a champ, she's so loving and sweet i hate that she got hurt like that, my poor little girl.  Then the same week i get attacked by a monster of a woman, which you can read about in my previous blog.....She was a good friend of my mother in law's and i met her for all of 5 seconds, and she slammed me on facebook saying all kinds of horrible things about me mostly aimed at my weight.  This woman did not look much smaller then me either and her daughter was also extremely overweight, but like i said before she most likely has no self esteem and no self worth to be talking horribly about people the way she did.  The funny thing there were two other witnesses to the entire thing, the lady who's house we were at and my mother in law, and both thought that everything she wrote was utter garbage and lies, my husband even read it and told me that doesn't even sound anything like me.  This woman made me out to be a monster just because i let her daughter know that i was already buying this bin from the lady and her daughter was going through everything putting her hands on everything, so yea i let her know (politely) that i already told the woman i was buying it, and of course that made me a monster telling her daughter she can't have something.  My husband told me she's probably one of those women that never tells their child no, so how dare someone tell her daughter no.  So because of that she attacked me viciously about my weight and that I was going to go and gorge on all the food I just bought and stupid things.  First off all this stuff in the bins this woman sells is organic and healthy, everything in the bins consisted of nuts and olive oils and things like that, not junk food, not garbage, not something someone would sit down and gorge on even if they did stuff like that.  Not to mention I also try to give away some of the stuff when i buy it, to a friend and to my mother in law if there's anything gluten free I always make sure and give it to my mother in law, and stuff, or if i have a lot of extras of something I give them away, I DO NOT gorge on olive oil and dry whole wheat pasta and coconut oil......hmmmm I don't know that anyone would gorge on that stuff, but ok.  It was a really low blow too, this woman doesn't know anything about me, my doctors have told me not to kick myself if I don't loose the weight, I'm on so many meds and yea some of them can cause weight gain, my gastric sleeve doctor told me not to kick myself if i don't loose or even if i gain, that just try to keep my ms under control .  My neurologist told me i can only workout/walk for 2-5 minutes a day, so yea that was an extremely low blow for that woman to say anything about my weight when I have been told by doctors to not worry about that that's the last thing i should worry about right now.  This woman is just pathetic, and she's gotten into fights with my mother in laws other friends, and talks horribly about them behind their backs but yet they still want to stay friends with this monster, god knows why, with friends like her who needs enemies.  Unfortunately my mother in law also said some bad things about me to this woman.....she wanted someone to vent to and she vented to a monster of a woman....I don't mind if she wants to vent about things that piss her off about me but please i beg of her to find a more trustworthy friend to do such things, I mean i have to vent about her at times and i have a friend that I trust 100% to never tell her things I'm venting about. One of the things that really pissed me off is she told this woman i don't let my husband drink sodas, and this woman went off on that, like its any of her business what I allow in my house.  And by the way its not that i don't let my husband drink sodas, he made a promise to me when I had the gastric sleeve surgery that we would both quit sodas together, hell his mom has diabetes he really doesn't need the extra sugar so it really hurt me that she would say anything bitching about that kind of thing, and of course before this awful woman attacked me he was messing with me at my mother in laws house saying he wants a mountain dew.....and his mother knowing our agreement told him he's a grown man go get one if he wants one.....oh that pissed me off so much, I really wish he would have told her then and there about the promise he made to me but no he's to much of a chicken S*&^ so yea I'm made out to be a horrible monster because i don't allow my husband to have a mountain dew oh my god.........I have asked him to sit down and talk to her and let her know that when he says stupid things like he wants a soda while we're at her house that he's just messing with me.....and tell her that he made a promise to me and that means something.
So after all that crap....the very next day after getting attacked my that horrible woman.....i got taken out into the hallway at my stepsons birthday party and basically got scolded by his mom saying that I did this that and the other and I'm looking at her like what....and trying to explain myself and of course she wouldn't let me speak at all.......because whatever her son says is truth no matter what........well after that I sat my husband down and told him he better sit her down and tell her EVERYTHING.  And finally after years and years of me telling him he needs to sit down and tell her everything he finally does.......and we find out that my stepson is a big giant liar to all of us and most of his anger and lies and put at me, that he's telling his mom i did this or that or said this or that that never happened and he comes to us telling us his mom did this or that or the other and that she says these horrible things about me all the time and that never happened.......she got him to admit he was lying about what she "attacked" me about at his party.  It really makes me feel like utter crap to know that all those horrible things he said his mom said were actually coming from him......it was bad enough he was "repeating" stuff like that but for them to actually have come from him makes it that much worse and that much more painful for me.  He was apparently trying to break me and my husband up in a really stupid manner, for some reason he thought talking horrible about me and his mom to each other would break us up and my husband would want to run back to her even though my stepson said all these horrible things about her.....he didn't really think that one threw very well.  Sorry kid I'm in it for the long haul whether you like it or  not.  We're going through fertility treatments to try and have a baby and everything and he knows about that but yet he thought he could break us up by saying mean things about his mother....OMG its the most pathetic stupid ploy I have ever heard.  But now because of all this we find out from his therapist he has dissociative  disorder or something.....so now we have to coddle him and treat him like a baby.......after all the horrible things he said to and about me that part makes me extremely sick to my stomach, but I'll do what I have to do and just get through it.  Oh and all that happened a week before we'll be getting him for a month.....so yea that's just the cherry on top of the big pile of sh$t

My Herbalife Recipes

Note: I’m not a distributor or anything, I just ordered my herbalife on amazon, so doing it on my own, decided to try it after talking to a lady about it at a church craft fair.  The link for the herbalife is just the generic main herbalife site.  Also I use Netrition  for my Torani Syrup and PB2 and other products because I have found them to be pretty decently priced and you only have to pay one $4.95 Shipping and Handling fee for however much you order so I think that’s pretty awesome. 

Update: I have lost 10 pounds already in under a week.

Herbalife Drink Mix Recipes

Chocolate Peanut butter Yumness

2 Scoops Herbalife Vanilla powder  

1 Cup Skim Milk (or liquid of choice)

½ Cup Ice

1 TBSP Chocolate PB2 

1 TBSP Vanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup

1 TBSP Chocolate Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

1 TBSP Chia Seeds 

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy. 

Note: I have a Vitamix and I absolutely love it, it makes everything nice and smooth.

Acai Berry Goodness

2 Scoops Herbalife Vanilla Powder 

1 Cup Skim Milk (or liquid of choice)

½ cup Ice

½ Cup Frozen Blueberries

1 scoop Acai Berry Freeze Dried Powder 

1 TBSP Vanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

1 TBSP Raspberry Torani Sugar Free Syrup 

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy. 

Note: I have a Vitamix and I absolutely love it, it makes everything nice and smooth.

My Blue Heaven

½ Cup Milk

½ Cup Water

½ Cup Frozen Blueberries

½ Cup Ice

½ TBSP Flax Seeds 

½ TBSP Chia Seeds 

2 Scoops Herbalife Powder 

1 Scoop Greens Gold 

1 Scoop Organic Freeze Dried Acai Powder 

1 TBSP Torani Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup 

1 TBSP Torani Sugar Free Raspberry Syrup 

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy

Strawberries and Milk

½ Cup Milk

½ Cup Water

4-5 Small or 1-3 Large Frozen Strawberries

½ Cup Frozen Blueberries

½ Container Strawberry Greek Yogurt

1 TBSP Flax Seed 

1 TBSP Chia Seed 

2 Scoops Herbalife Powder Vanilla 

1 Scoop Greens Gold 

1 Scoop Organic Freeze Dried Acai Powder

1 TBSP Vanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

1 TBSP Raspberry Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy

Pineapple Delight

½ cup water

½ cup milk

1 cup Ice

½ TBSP Flax Seed

½ TBSP Chia Seed 

2 Scoops Vanilla Herbalife Powder 

1 TBSP Vanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

½ cup pineapple chunks plus juice

½ container pineapple flavored Greek Yogurt

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy

No Milk Added

1 cup ice

1 cup water

½ cup Acai Berry Juice

1 Scoop Greens Gold

2 Scoops Herbalife Vanilla Powder

1 TBSP pVanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

1 TBSP Raspberry Sugar Free Torani Syrup 

½ tbsp Chia Seeds

½ tbsp Flax Seeds 

Instructions: Blend and Enjoy

Trip to Indiana and starting Herbalife

Just a quick little update on what’s going on in my life; We went to Indiana for my stepsons wedding, it was such a beautiful wedding, we all love his new wife, she’s the sweetest person you’d ever meet.  We were gone about a week, stayed in Memphis on the way to and on the way back, first time my husband and I have ever taken a vacation.  It was fun, did lots of shopping, found pay by the pound Goodwill's, ended up getting 2 coach purses and 1 vintage Prada, which was pretty cool, and went to antique malls, I love antique malls, they have such neat things, and lots of hidden treasures.  Found lots of goody bags filled with jewelry and beads, I love going through that stuff and sorting it into usable jewelry and stuff I can use for crafts, so that’s been fun. 

We got back a few days ago and I decided way before the trip that I was going to start the Herbalife diet when we got back.  I got my shipment in the mail yesterday and for the two days before I got it I used slim fast that we already had in the house.  We both gained 10 pounds on the trip, that’s what happens when you eat out for every  meal for a week, yuck.  Well I’m pleased with my results so far, in just the three days I’ve taken off 8 of those pounds, so I’m really happy. 

I’m going to be adding some recipes for my Herbalife shakes in the next week or so, only made three so far, I want a few more variations before I add the recipes.  

Loss and off track

Well its been awhile since i've written anything, been having a really tough time lately, backtracked on my weight loss because of a lot of bad things happening right after the other, i'm hoping to get my life back on track and continue with my weight loss.  I lost the entire reason i even had this surgery and it hit me hard, i went into really bad depression where i didn't even want to get out of bed moreless watch what i was eating and exercise, I lost my baby, the only reason i had this surgery was so i could get pregnant, so thats been extremely hard on me, and i'm at a point now where i hope we can get pregnant again and i hope everything will be ok next time around but loosing my baby made me feel so utterly hopeless and hurt, i have my 1 year follow up this thursday, it'll be a year since surgery, and the most i had lost was about 95 pounds....well i've gained some of that back and now its more like maybe 75 pounds or so loss, and the surgeon wanted me to have been at 150 pound loss, well i'll just explain to him the crap that happened the past six monthes and just hope he doesn't roll his eyes at me like my family practitioner did, yes i realize life happens...shit happens, but my god it was one thing after the other for six monthes straight, with a few deaths, lots of loss, and heartbreak, and pain, and trauma, it was just to much for me to handle, i just stopped caring about the weight loss, and now i've joined a church, i've made friends, and i have a support system, and i really do hope to get back on track, well thats all for now....i'll try to continue writing on here, maybe it will give me hope and support.

End of the month goals from october and November new goal

Goal for October drink more water, and go 45 miles on the elliptical. 

End of month goals, have been drinking a ton of water, I’m sure I’m getting in my proper amount, and didn’t quite make the 45 mile goal but I think I still did good considering the beginning of the month I couldn’t even go a mile and by the end of the month I could go 3 miles.  My weekly counts start on the first of the month and end on the Saturday, with the last one ending on the last day of the month, so some of the weeks are only a day or two.

Week 1 .8 miles

Week 2 7.7 Miles

Week 3 5.4 Miles

Week 4 9.4 Miles

Week 5 7.7 Miles

Week 6 2 Miles

Total for October: 34 Miles

New Goal for November

Go 50 miles on the elliptical.

Loose at least 5 pounds, (my weight loss as been non existent the past few monthes) Would love to get down to 266 so then I can have bragging rights over loosing 100 pounds. 

I hate My weight being stalled

Uggg, well I'm in a stall right now, apparently its normal, and i happen to be right at that point when most people have stalls, so yea, its not fun, especially since i was hoping to be 250 by my birthday which is November 23, doesn't look like that will happen, and now its that time of the month so I'm all bloated and the scale is not my friend during my time of the month.  I've been working out almost every day, doing the elliptical, and this past weekend my husband, stepson, and I went walking at the park, i actually ran some, it was an amazing feeling to be able to run, of course didn't get that far, but went way father then i thought i would have been able to go, it was really something.  I set a goal for myself this month to go 45 miles on my elliptical, i don't think I'm going to make it though, because there were a few days i had to take breaks because i overdid it, increased the resistance and that made me really sore, so yea I'm just going to keep the resistance low, and try for more time or going faster, I don't have pains that way, luckily though it seems Tylenol helps with the aches and pains, before surgery when i weighed 366 Tylenol didn't do anything for me, and now it works really well. 
Food issues are still there even after surgery, even after having a really small stomach, you still get cravings, you still want to eat bad things, and for some there lucky and the bad things give them problems and that keeps them away, but for me, i don't know I just seem to not have that many problems with food, I've only thrown up twice since surgery, neither was fun, I don't remember what i ate the first time, but i do remember it felt like it was stuck and it was really dry and i felt like i was choking and having to pull it out of my throat, it was awful.  The second time I puked was a bout of dumping syndrome, the only time I've had dumping syndrome so far, and let me tell you this, it is no fun at all, oh my god it was so painful, i overdid it with sweets that day, i tried one of those new ice cream bars, uggg i can't think of the name but there like just a chocolate covered ice cream bar, but its pretty big, and i was stupid and ate one, and well i suffered big time, i went to bed and after a while my entire body started hurting and i started getting really bad cramps and went to the bathroom and sat there for a while and um well this may be a little graphic but yea i had explosive diareah, and then after that i decided to wait a little while before laying back down so i got on the computer for  a few and took a few sips tiny sips of something to drink and oh my gosh, that sent pain throughout and i had to rush to the bathroom and starting puking my guts up like 4-5 times, it was awful, not fun at all, that was a very bad experience but other then that i haven't really had any problems with any foods, at least nothing to severe, if i eat a little to much i get pain, the pain level depends on how many bites to much, or if i drank right after, now sometimes i do drink after cause certain foods just leave a yucky feeling in my mouth so i try to just take a small sip, but if i take to big of  a drink right after eating then that will hurt.  I seem to gurgle with salads, a lot of people in my support group complain about chicken, i have no problems with chicken, but then again when i make chicken i always boil it or cook it in the oven in a pan full of water so like boiling it in the oven, and then i usually use chicken in casseroles or something so its got soft ingredients to go down well, i guess they mostly complain saying its to dry so it feels stuck, so maybe i don't have that problem with chicken cause my chicken is usually not dry, hmmm, I did have a problem with steak in the beginning, it made me a bit nauseated, probably didn't chew it enough or something but steak is kinda hard to chew down to apple sauce texture, so we just don't have steak that often or i cook it in a way that it will come out nice and tender to chew easily, i also try to get the leaner looking cuts, and as for ground meat i typically only use ground turkey, so red meat we eat maybe once a week or so, we usually have ground turkey and chicken breast, only use boneless skinless chicken breasts.  Bread and tortillas go down ok if i don't have to much, otherwise it does cause some discomfort or pain if i have to much, i get a 45 calorie bread, and keep it in the freezer cause 1 loaf will usually last a few weeks, we try not to have bread that often, and as for tortillas i found this whole wheat carb balance tortillas that's 80 calories, which is the best flour tortillas I've found most are over 100 calories, also found these flat breads that are like 2 circles connected those are about 90 calories so if you only eat 1 of the halves its only about 45 cal and its actually pretty good, can use it as a pizza crust or to make a grilled sand which or whatever, another good bread is lavash bread, a huge piece of this stuff is only 50 calories, i usually cut it into 4 servings so its only about 15 calories per piece, and it can be used as a base for a pizza, or a sand which, or a taco, or a wrap, and it taste really good too.  Some other good products are Walden farms products which are all 0 calories, some of them don't taste that great, and some of them are really good, just don't expect it to taste exactly like its full calorie ed counterpart, that's the problem a lot of people seem to expect it to taste exactly the same and just throw it out cause its not like the full caloried version, well of course its not, its a 0 calorie alternative.  I think the chocolate sauce tastes good, it taste better then the sugar free calorieed versions of chocolate sauce, and the syrup taste good, its not as thick as regular syrup but still gives you the flavor you need without the calories.  Oh and if your going to test taste the stuff, please don't just try it on a spoon or anything cause yea it doesn't taste that great by itself, add it to what you would eat it on to give it a taste test, oh the peanut spread does not taste like peanut butter but you can always mix some of it up with a little regular peanut butter for less calories and still have the peanut butter flavor.  Torani Sugar free Syrups are great too, they're 0 calories and you can add them to drinks, or shakes or puddings or yogurt or whatever, you can bake with them to give things flavor without all the added calories. I took the Walden farms pancake syrup and mixed some with one of the flavored torani syrups and heated it in the microwave and it was a really good addition on top of a low calorie french toast (made with 1 slice 45 cal bread and 1 egg and a tsp of butter or Pam spray) or a cottage cheese pancake.  Talking about french toast i remember making these as after school snacks when i was a kid, never did them low cal and certainly didn't only eat 1, I'd use regular white bread and lots of butter, and eat about 5-6 of them loaded with pancake syrup, my main after school meals were either french toast, a box of macaroni (because if i opened it i had to eat the entire box or i got yelled at for wasting food) or an entire can of ranch style beans or a can of tuna, or eggs, or a combination of the above.  All throughout elementary, junior high and high school i did not get breakfast or lunch, i ate after school the above mentioned foods and then i ate at dinner time. My stomach would rumble all day at school it was so embarrassing, people would look around to try to figure out who was making the noises.  When i got to college i went on a diet, I stopped drinking sodas, cut out sweets, and only ate once a day instead of after school and dinner time, and i lost 80 pounds in like 3 months, I can't wait till i get back down to my lowest weight, it was 250, when i was 18 years old, can't wait to go even lower then that, but right now my goal is 250 and I'm about 21 pounds or so away, oh and yea i know eating only once a day wasn't the healthiest diet but living with my parents and having no money of my own there really wasn't any other alternative, they never really kept stocked groceries in the house...i remember so many times either living off of sandwich's or rice and beans or hamburger helper. 

Measurements for October

October 5, 2011

Weight:  274

Measurements

Waist: 52

Hips: 57

Breasts: 50

Ankle: 10

Wrist: 7 1/2

Thigh: 29

Neck: 16

Upper Arms: 19

Clothing Sizes

Dress: 2X-3X

Pant: 2X-3X Jeans 26

Skirt: 2X-3X

Shirt: 2X-3X 18-24

Support Group Meeting

Well I went to my support group meeting Wednesday, hadn't been in 2 months since i was out of town for 1 of those months and extremely depressed for the other month, didn't want to go anywhere or do anything.  I'm doing a lot better now.  The support group was nice, I found out that my stall is normal, I'm right on Que for when people end up stalling, but it looks like its starting to go back down, and I've been working out everyday just about, I really enjoy doing the elliptical, just sometimes i need a take a break cause my knees get to sore, but it seems Tylenol really helps with the pain, which is nice.  Well this meeting they had us all introduce ourselves and tell a little about ourselves, i got so nervous and i was towards the end so i had to wait that entire time thinking about what i was going to say and getting all nervous uggg, i hate that feeling, i never liked to talk in school either.  Well when they got to me i said my name and what surgery i had and when i had surgery and how much i lost and the best part when i said how much i lost everyone was like wow and cool, and stuff so i thought that was the best part of it, i also mentioned that i use the elliptical everyday and i use myfitnesspal to track food and exercise.  I ended up scoring 8 blouses and 7 bottoms and 1 dress from the meeting, i love that we can trade clothes there, it makes it a lot cheaper then having to go buy new clothes every time your size changes, everything looks nice and new and is name brand stuff, so I'm really happy, I also took a bag of clothes that doesn't fit me anymore so someone else will be able to use those.  They also had these ladies that make healthy meals for you, but they have extremely expensive prices, so I'd rather just cook at home, about 6-9 dollars per meal, so crazy expensive, they had samples, their food was pretty good, but no way do we have that kind of money.  They also gave us two sample meals which was cool, we ended up having those for dinner last night, the grilled zucchini was really good, not a fan of the squash though, they were both chicken dishes, one came with a little BBQ sauce that was pretty spicy and the other came with this white sauce that tasted like cucumbers, we ended up splitting both meals so we could both try each others, and the funny part is i liked the one my husband chose better and he liked the one i chose better, so I'm really glad i decided to split them both.

Goal

My Goal for the month of October is to go 45 miles on my elliptical.  I've been doing pretty good so far, only 4 days in, done it every day.  Time is getting better, going further in shorter times.  Started at only being able to do 6 minutes 2 weeks ago, last week was able to do 15 minutes and this week doing 20 minutes each time, hoping to be up to 30 soon, i'll try to up the minutes by a couple this week, I try to do it at least 1-3 times a day, since i've upped the time to 20 minutes i've only done it once a day, cause its a bit harder on my legs, but hopefully after a few days i'll get more used to it and be able to do it 2-3 times  a day.  Plus i do workouts with a medicine ball, and i've been active in cleaning my house....was depressed for an entire month and it got wayyyy away from me, but i got more energy and i'm more focused and trying to get things done.
The doctors say everything looks good, all my test results are good, and they couldn't see any fibroid tumors, so hopefully when its time to get pregnant I'll get pregnant with no problems, that would be a miracle, and my ultimate goal. 

Whats going on right now

Well i weighed myself this morning i'm 274, which is good, cause i've been stuck at 277 for like the past month, and finally it seems to be starting to go down more.  I got an elliptical last weekend, so i've been starting to use that, but i had to start out slow, cause i hadn't worked out in 2 monthes, the first month because i was out of town for most of the month and the second month cause i was really depressed and not really caring about anything, i wasn't eating good, i was eating horribly actually, and i certainly wasn't exercising, and now i got my schedule all out of wack, and it takes a while to get it back in tune, i like having the schedule where i go to sleep with my husband and then wake up when he's leaving for work, that schedule keeps me feeling the best, when i get to much sleep which i've been getting lately i feel crappy and just plain uggg and blah.  So i really need to try to fix my schedule.
I cut off all my hair or at least most of it, have a really short do, and i died it bleach blonde, but it came out a little orangeish.  I like it, i like to try new cuts and colors and things with my hair, i figure it'll grow back anyways....i really like it short like this though, when its long all i ever want to do it wear it in a ponytail cause i don't like the feeling of my hair on the back of my neck. I'll add photos in another post i haven't put them on my computer yet. 

July 1, 2011 Pics and Measurements

I'm listing my old clothes that don't fit anymore on Ebay, if anyone is interested you can find them at  http://myworld.ebay.com/leslieanntexas/  I'll be adding more as I get smaller, I only have 3 listings right now, but i have a ton more to list, so keep watching out for new stuff, I have alot of stuff still with tags, or new without tags, or gently used. 
I'm a bit late in posting this but the pics and measurements and weight were all taken on the first of this month.

July 1, 2011

Weight:  289

Measurements

Waist: 54

Hips: 59

Breasts: 52 1/2

Ankle: 11

Wrist: 7 3/4

Thigh: 30 1/2

Neck: 16 3/4

Upper Arms: 18 3/4

Clothing Sizes

Dress: 2X-3X 22-24

Pant: 3X-4X 26-28

Skirt: 3X 26-28

Shirt: 22-26 2X-3X can even fit into some size 18-20s

Down 80 Pounds and Feeling Great.....But Sugar Cravings are NO fun

Well I've lost 80 pounds, I'm at 286, and I can go shopping at so many different stores now its really awesome, i love to shop.  I've been doing good at the gym, going from being able to only do 30 seconds on the elliptical to now doing 16 and a half minutes (1 mile) on the elliptical, is really amazing.  I can't wait till i can do more, I would like to take some of the classes my gym has to offer, but i know i'm not in enough shape right now, there's just no way i would be able to keep up.  When i get to 250 or so I'm going to get a couple of personal trainer sessions at my gym so i can know how to kick up my workouts a notch. 
Food issues are still really hard for me, i hate it, i wish i had some of the problems with food that i hear alot of people have, but i have no problems with anything really, salad makes me gurgle a bit though, and i think popcorn gives me a weird feeling, but i have never puked, or had anything come back up, not to mention its really hard to get down to just the 3 meals a day that my surgeon wants me on, and at my support group meeting yesterday the dietician said you should have 3 meals a day plus 2 snacks, and i know your suppose to listen to your surgeons guidelines, but i wonder if the 2 snacks would help.  I seem to be fine when i'm busy, i don't think about food or anything, but if i'm home not doing anything like today, it seems to be all thats on my mind, and yes of course i did bad already and its only noon, i did good this morning, i had a 250 calorie breakfast or so, mostly protein, but then after a while i started thinking of the icecream in the freezer, and i kept telling myself no i don't need it no don't get it, ugggg, and then of course i ended up getting some, banana pudding ice cream....I hate this I feel bad about it now, I know i shouldn't have had it, but its like i didn't have any control....I know i shouldn't keep that stuff in my house, i should just get rid of it, and usually I'm good at not keeping the bad stuff in my house, but lately i have just been craving sweets something feirce.  The simple sugar free pudding cups or sugar free popsicles aren't covering the sweet cravings right now.  I'm thinking about going through my pantry and maybe donating some of the unopened stuff that we shouldn't have to the battered womens shelter down the street i'm sure they could use that stuff way more then i could.