Picking up the Pieces

Well I've began to get my life back together, "picking up the pieces" of a broken me.  I've had some tough times the past 6 months, been heartbreaking and traumatic and painful, and numbing.  Now I'm finally able to get back on track, I've started working out again, I've been to the gym everyday this week, Mon, Tues, wed, Thurs.  I was sure on Monday that i was only going to be able to do max of 10 min on the elliptical and then be to worn out to do anymore....well 10 minutes goes by like a breeze, and i ended up doing 33 minutes and 2 miles, then Tues i did 40 min and 2.4 miles, wed i had a doc appointment and other things going on but still managed to get to the gym and had time to do 30 min and 1.6 miles, Thurs was the best, i was able to do 60 min 3.6 miles, i have never been able to do that much without taking breaks in between i was so proud of myself, and not one single day was i to sore or anything, i felt good, i did water aerobics/swimming after each workout and moved in the pool the entire time tried to be in the pool for 40 min to an hour each day, the day i had the doc appointment i was only able to do 20 min, but still moved my butt off in the pool.  Then after all that working out Monday and Thursday i still had energy to go grocery shopping and parked further away for that extra walk, and on Monday even ran back to my car, me running wow, that was really amazing, I'm going to have to start going to the park with my step son and we can run around the park together and my hubby will be left behind, poor babe he gets all upset when we leave him behind, so we try to slow down for him and then he'll cheat and take shortcuts....he's so bad.  The food is still a little bit of an issue, not eating as bad as i was when i was going through severe depression though so that's good, just eating a few to many high calorie snacks, i really have a weakness for peanut butter and chocolate, I don't eat any chewy or hard candies those hurt me alot, no skittles, lolly pops, star burst, twizzlers everything like that hurts inside my stomach, so i stay away from that stuff which is really good, but unfortunately chocolate goes down without a problem, but i try not to keep it in my house, the problem is i spend a lot of time at my mother in laws and she really loves her candy, so she's got a cookie jar type of thing filled with mini candy bars, i usually try to stay away but when I'm there the entire day they start calling my name, especially the Reece's cups, most of the other stuff i can avoid most of the time, but like i said peanut butter and chocolate are my weakness.
Well I've lost 4 pounds this week so I'm very happy, I can't wait to get into our new house, I'm going to make a healthy menu plan each week and hopefully follow it.  Plus I'll be making more of a routine schedule for my day to day activities including working out.  I have an elliptical at home and wii fit and tons of videos so some days i can work out at home and some days I'll go to the gym and right now is the best going to the gym cause they have an indoor pool which i love, its a bit of a drive about 40 minutes away or so, but its worth it for that indoor pool and plus when i go to the gym i try to "kill 2 or 3 birds with 1 stone" so I'll go to the gym and then go to a grocery store that's only in that area, Aldis for example they have some really good prices but the one around my gym is the closest to us, and also going to the movies or the mall after working out is great too the mall is like across the street from my gym so its perfect, some days i get dropped off at my mother in laws and we do a whole day together which I'm going to start adding the gym into our routine.  I can have my hubby drop me off at the gym and my mother in law can meet me there, and we can workout together or go swimming together, and then we usually have a nice day out where we go to the movies and lunch sometimes with other friends too which is nice, and then we just hang for a while and Tues and wed we have ham radio get together and wed pot luck at church, oh pot luck at church is going to be my cheat day cause they always have such good food, and i bring dessert typically since i live kinda far its hard to bring hot food, so i figure if i see a really neat dessert recipe that i want to try but i don't want to end up with so much at my house for us to eat its perfect to make it for the potluck and then i can only have a small amount and the rest gets eaten up for the  most part, so far I've had enough to save for my stepson for Fridays which he likes.
Well that's all i have for now, I'm going to try to start writing in this blog again on a regular basis.

End of the month goals from october and November new goal

Goal for October drink more water, and go 45 miles on the elliptical. 

End of month goals, have been drinking a ton of water, I’m sure I’m getting in my proper amount, and didn’t quite make the 45 mile goal but I think I still did good considering the beginning of the month I couldn’t even go a mile and by the end of the month I could go 3 miles.  My weekly counts start on the first of the month and end on the Saturday, with the last one ending on the last day of the month, so some of the weeks are only a day or two.

Week 1 .8 miles

Week 2 7.7 Miles

Week 3 5.4 Miles

Week 4 9.4 Miles

Week 5 7.7 Miles

Week 6 2 Miles

Total for October: 34 Miles

New Goal for November

Go 50 miles on the elliptical.

Loose at least 5 pounds, (my weight loss as been non existent the past few monthes) Would love to get down to 266 so then I can have bragging rights over loosing 100 pounds. 

Goal

My Goal for the month of October is to go 45 miles on my elliptical.  I've been doing pretty good so far, only 4 days in, done it every day.  Time is getting better, going further in shorter times.  Started at only being able to do 6 minutes 2 weeks ago, last week was able to do 15 minutes and this week doing 20 minutes each time, hoping to be up to 30 soon, i'll try to up the minutes by a couple this week, I try to do it at least 1-3 times a day, since i've upped the time to 20 minutes i've only done it once a day, cause its a bit harder on my legs, but hopefully after a few days i'll get more used to it and be able to do it 2-3 times  a day.  Plus i do workouts with a medicine ball, and i've been active in cleaning my house....was depressed for an entire month and it got wayyyy away from me, but i got more energy and i'm more focused and trying to get things done.
The doctors say everything looks good, all my test results are good, and they couldn't see any fibroid tumors, so hopefully when its time to get pregnant I'll get pregnant with no problems, that would be a miracle, and my ultimate goal.