Picking up the Pieces

Well I've began to get my life back together, "picking up the pieces" of a broken me.  I've had some tough times the past 6 months, been heartbreaking and traumatic and painful, and numbing.  Now I'm finally able to get back on track, I've started working out again, I've been to the gym everyday this week, Mon, Tues, wed, Thurs.  I was sure on Monday that i was only going to be able to do max of 10 min on the elliptical and then be to worn out to do anymore....well 10 minutes goes by like a breeze, and i ended up doing 33 minutes and 2 miles, then Tues i did 40 min and 2.4 miles, wed i had a doc appointment and other things going on but still managed to get to the gym and had time to do 30 min and 1.6 miles, Thurs was the best, i was able to do 60 min 3.6 miles, i have never been able to do that much without taking breaks in between i was so proud of myself, and not one single day was i to sore or anything, i felt good, i did water aerobics/swimming after each workout and moved in the pool the entire time tried to be in the pool for 40 min to an hour each day, the day i had the doc appointment i was only able to do 20 min, but still moved my butt off in the pool.  Then after all that working out Monday and Thursday i still had energy to go grocery shopping and parked further away for that extra walk, and on Monday even ran back to my car, me running wow, that was really amazing, I'm going to have to start going to the park with my step son and we can run around the park together and my hubby will be left behind, poor babe he gets all upset when we leave him behind, so we try to slow down for him and then he'll cheat and take shortcuts....he's so bad.  The food is still a little bit of an issue, not eating as bad as i was when i was going through severe depression though so that's good, just eating a few to many high calorie snacks, i really have a weakness for peanut butter and chocolate, I don't eat any chewy or hard candies those hurt me alot, no skittles, lolly pops, star burst, twizzlers everything like that hurts inside my stomach, so i stay away from that stuff which is really good, but unfortunately chocolate goes down without a problem, but i try not to keep it in my house, the problem is i spend a lot of time at my mother in laws and she really loves her candy, so she's got a cookie jar type of thing filled with mini candy bars, i usually try to stay away but when I'm there the entire day they start calling my name, especially the Reece's cups, most of the other stuff i can avoid most of the time, but like i said peanut butter and chocolate are my weakness.
Well I've lost 4 pounds this week so I'm very happy, I can't wait to get into our new house, I'm going to make a healthy menu plan each week and hopefully follow it.  Plus I'll be making more of a routine schedule for my day to day activities including working out.  I have an elliptical at home and wii fit and tons of videos so some days i can work out at home and some days I'll go to the gym and right now is the best going to the gym cause they have an indoor pool which i love, its a bit of a drive about 40 minutes away or so, but its worth it for that indoor pool and plus when i go to the gym i try to "kill 2 or 3 birds with 1 stone" so I'll go to the gym and then go to a grocery store that's only in that area, Aldis for example they have some really good prices but the one around my gym is the closest to us, and also going to the movies or the mall after working out is great too the mall is like across the street from my gym so its perfect, some days i get dropped off at my mother in laws and we do a whole day together which I'm going to start adding the gym into our routine.  I can have my hubby drop me off at the gym and my mother in law can meet me there, and we can workout together or go swimming together, and then we usually have a nice day out where we go to the movies and lunch sometimes with other friends too which is nice, and then we just hang for a while and Tues and wed we have ham radio get together and wed pot luck at church, oh pot luck at church is going to be my cheat day cause they always have such good food, and i bring dessert typically since i live kinda far its hard to bring hot food, so i figure if i see a really neat dessert recipe that i want to try but i don't want to end up with so much at my house for us to eat its perfect to make it for the potluck and then i can only have a small amount and the rest gets eaten up for the  most part, so far I've had enough to save for my stepson for Fridays which he likes.
Well that's all i have for now, I'm going to try to start writing in this blog again on a regular basis.

Loss and off track

Well its been awhile since i've written anything, been having a really tough time lately, backtracked on my weight loss because of a lot of bad things happening right after the other, i'm hoping to get my life back on track and continue with my weight loss.  I lost the entire reason i even had this surgery and it hit me hard, i went into really bad depression where i didn't even want to get out of bed moreless watch what i was eating and exercise, I lost my baby, the only reason i had this surgery was so i could get pregnant, so thats been extremely hard on me, and i'm at a point now where i hope we can get pregnant again and i hope everything will be ok next time around but loosing my baby made me feel so utterly hopeless and hurt, i have my 1 year follow up this thursday, it'll be a year since surgery, and the most i had lost was about 95 pounds....well i've gained some of that back and now its more like maybe 75 pounds or so loss, and the surgeon wanted me to have been at 150 pound loss, well i'll just explain to him the crap that happened the past six monthes and just hope he doesn't roll his eyes at me like my family practitioner did, yes i realize life happens...shit happens, but my god it was one thing after the other for six monthes straight, with a few deaths, lots of loss, and heartbreak, and pain, and trauma, it was just to much for me to handle, i just stopped caring about the weight loss, and now i've joined a church, i've made friends, and i have a support system, and i really do hope to get back on track, well thats all for now....i'll try to continue writing on here, maybe it will give me hope and support.

Weekly Menu Plan oct 31, 2011 to nov 6, 2011

Weekly Menu Plan for October 31, 2011 to November 6, 2011

Monday

Zatarins dirty rice with ground turkey and fat free refried beans.  Turned that into tacos with corn tortillas and some shredded cheese, have tons of leftovers for lunch tomorrow for the both of us.

Tuesday

Did most of the cooking for the week today.  First off I froze the leftovers from yesterday, I had it for lunch, hubby took leftovers from Sundays meal for lunch, and froze the rest of the dirty rice, and mixed in the leftover beans, will be able to get 4 more individual meals out of freezing it.

I’m slow cooking a small brisket in BBQ Sauce, can serve that on a slice of toast with some mashed potatoes.  I made 2 packages of mashed potatoes, 1 package to go with the BBQ beef and the other for another meal.  I also made a boxed sweet and sour chicken stirfry, added some frozen veggies and mixed in the rice.  I cooked up 3 chicken breasts and used half for the stir fry and the other half for a casserole, I cooked up a box of stuffing and added in a can of corn and the other half of the cooked chicken and baked it in the oven and then added some cheese and let sit in the oven for a few more minutes to melt the cheese, and going to serve this with the other packet of mashed potatoes.  I ended up having that for lunch with some leftover cranberry sauce from Sundays meal. 

So for dinner tonight we’ll be having the BBQ brisket with a slice of cheddar cheese on a slice of whole wheat toast.

Wednesday

Michael is taking some of the sweet and sour chicken stirfry for lunch today. 

Going to have the stuffing casserole for dinner tonight. 

Thursday

Made enchiladas with turkey chili, chili beans, 10 corn tortillas, velveta cheese, and cheddar cheese on top.  This I had for lunch and dinner. 

Friday

Today we took Skaro to a no kill shelter, we had been trying to get him in for the past 2 months, and he got adopted within a few hours, it was so hard having to leave him, I was crying so much and just holding him and then they took him from me, and we left, and a few hours later they emailed us to let us know he got adopted already, so that made it a little easier on me that he found a home so quickly. 

We went to lunch after taking Skaro, because we were in the same town we had to pick Brandon up in, and its an hour and a half away from home so pointless to go back home, after lunch we went to see Harold and kumar in 3D, it was a really good movie, nice to see something funny after going through something sad. 

Then we picked up Brandon and let him know about Skaro, of course he understood because he already knew we were trying to find him a new home. 

So for dinner we had a smorgousboard of leftovers, put them out buffet style and we each had a little of everything. 

Saturday

We Grilled up some Turkey wieners (note: last of our wieners we had in the freezer, we’re cutting wieners out of our diet for  a while now.) and some chicken and made some ravioli pasta with some white sauce (Note: I wasn’t really a big fan of the Ravioli, and I don’t really like white sauce so I only had a single ravioli) and grilled up some small potatoes, and also grilled 2 turkey burgers, we each got half a turkey burger. We had that for lunch and dinner.

Sunday

Leftovers from Saturday for lunch and dinner.  Decided since we had so many leftovers we didn’t go out to eat after dropping off Brandon like we usually do.  And also have plenty of leftovers for both of us for lunch for Monday as well. 

End of the month goals from october and November new goal

Goal for October drink more water, and go 45 miles on the elliptical. 

End of month goals, have been drinking a ton of water, I’m sure I’m getting in my proper amount, and didn’t quite make the 45 mile goal but I think I still did good considering the beginning of the month I couldn’t even go a mile and by the end of the month I could go 3 miles.  My weekly counts start on the first of the month and end on the Saturday, with the last one ending on the last day of the month, so some of the weeks are only a day or two.

Week 1 .8 miles

Week 2 7.7 Miles

Week 3 5.4 Miles

Week 4 9.4 Miles

Week 5 7.7 Miles

Week 6 2 Miles

Total for October: 34 Miles

New Goal for November

Go 50 miles on the elliptical.

Loose at least 5 pounds, (my weight loss as been non existent the past few monthes) Would love to get down to 266 so then I can have bragging rights over loosing 100 pounds. 

Weigh in and Measurements November 1, 2011

Note: Just Copied over the same Stats as last month cause i haven't lost any weight, well like 1 pound or something, it fluctuates between 270 and 274.

November 1, 2011

Weight:  273

Measurements

Waist: 52

Hips: 57

Breasts: 50

Ankle: 10

Wrist: 7 1/2

Thigh: 29

Neck: 16

Upper Arms: 19

Clothing Sizes

Dress: 2X-3X

Pant: 2X-3X Jeans 26

Skirt: 2X-3X

Shirt: 2X-3X 18-24

Note: I have been on a major stall for the past few monthes, my weight fluctuates a few pounds up or down, but its basically staying around 273 for now, I really need to get my butt into gear and shape up, I’ve been working out almost every day at least for 30 minutes or sometimes more, they said at the support group meeting that we need to work out 60 to 90 minutes at least for weight loss, so that pretty much sucks, my body doesn’t want to work out that long right now, I can probably manage an hour but I spread it throughout the day, I do intervals of working out 10-15 minutes at a time several times a day, either doing my elliptical which I try to do at least 3 miles a day on or do other exercises off exercise videos from hulu.  My eating habits aren’t that great though, I haven’t managed to get down to the 3 meals a day the surgeon wants me to be on.  Plus I still indulge in things I really shouldn’t be indulging in.  I’m trying to do better, I’ve been drinking a lot more water then I was, I don’t think I was getting enough liquids in, and all I was drinking was wylers light its like crystal light but cheaper and tastes a little better….but I quit that stuff and now just drinking water with the occational cup of coolaide made with splenda, trying to take out other artificial sweeteners and just using splenda.  I have a ton more energy, I can actually run some, not very far but still its an awesome feeling to be able to run, I can walk around our park without being out of breath or in severe pain, I tried it back when I was 366 and oh my god I could barely make it around the thing and my back was killing me, now I can run around a portion and walk and switch back and forth between walking and running and feel fine, no pains at all, and not out of breath, its so nice.  

Weekly Menu Plan for Oct 24, 2011 to Oct 30, 2011

Weekly Meal Plan For October 24, 2011 to October 30, 2011

Monday

Made Some Turkey Chili.  Cooked up a package of ground turkey, sautéed some onions and green pepper and garlic, and added some cumin and salt and pepper, and threw in a can of diced tomatoes, can of ranch style beans, a can of Hormel turkey chili with beans, a can of Hormel turkey chili without beans, and a can of wolf brand turkey chili no beans.  This made a ton of leftovers, so we’ll both have it for lunch tomorrow and possibly freeze some or just keep it in the fridge for my hubby to take to lunch for a few days.

Tuesday

Cornbread Surprise.  Note: take cornbread surprise out of the freezer Monday so its defrosted for today. 

Wednesday

Salsa Chicken with Mexican rice (already cooked and in the freezer) and Pinto Beans (already cooked and in the freezer need to season for flavor.) Pull out everything from the freezer Tuesday so its defrosted for today.  I’m going to boil the chicken on the stove and then when its about done I’m going to bake it in the oven with some Salsa spooned over it, and serve it with my Mexican rice and pinto beans. 

Thursday

Chicken and shrimp and Veggie Teriaki Stirfry with rice.

Friday

Pizza.  I’ll use up some of the sandwhich rounds (45 cal each half) (Note: I was only able to eat one of the mini pizzas with a little of the sides.) I have leftover and add some pizza/spaghetti sauce I already have made up in the freezer and add some mozzarella cheese also already in the freezer all in serving sizes.  Served with leftover Potato that I had for lunch it was a big potato so plenty for the 3 of us plus still had leftovers, and some leftover macaroni, Kraft had this new kind of macaroni that says it has a full serving of veggies, it’s got cauliflour powder or something, I could actually taste the cauliflour, I don’t have macaroni often once every few monthes or so, so I thought I’d give this a try, it was pretty good, but a bit expensive, twice the price of the regular box of kraft macaroni and 1 less serving, but we still managed to make a 2 person box feed three people plus I had some for lunch before I used the rest up for dinner, so that’s 4 servings we got out of a 2 serving box, so that’s not bad at all.  Oh and I had bought 2 cooked chicken breasts at the grocery store I had some of one of them for lunch and the rest is what I used to top the pizzas, there ended up being more chicken left but its been in the fridge a few days so I’ll be throwing out the rest of it.  I really need to remember to freeze extras of stuff right away…..

Saturday

Grill Hotdogs and Corn on the Cob, and BBQ Beans, with whatever chips we already have on hand.  Note: only thing I’ll have to buy is the corn on the cob, and we’ll use regular bread that’s already in the freezer instead of high calorie buns, I use a 45 cal bread.  I am using regular wieners though because I had them in my freezer and I want to get them used up, instead of wasting them and throwing them away, but from now on I’m only going to buy the lower calorie wieners, but I’m thinking about cutting wieners out of our diet all together so I’ll just be using what we already stocked up on in our freezer and when we run out of them then no more wieners for a while, I’m not a big fan of them anyways, my stepson and my hubby are the hot dog fans.  We ended up going car shopping today so we didn’t get to have the hotdogs for lunch, instead we ate at burger king, not my favorite place, I actually hate fast food restaurants….i shared a chicken sandwhich with my hubby and we all three shared an order of fries.  We ended up stopping by my inlaws after car shopping and invited them over for dinner….we had to take both cars home so my hubby drove home and me and my stepson went to walmart to pick up a couple last minute things for the bbq dinner, and then I got a call from my hubby while we were shopping and he ended up locking his keys in the car, and well I didn’t have a set of keys to the house cause I was driving the new car.  Luckily we had invited his parents over and they have a set of our house keys, but unfortionately they were already halfway to our house when he called to tell them he locked himself out and they didn’t have our key with them….So me and Brandon walked around walmart to kill time for a while cause it was going to be about another 45 minutes….and we didn’t want to sit outside with groceries melting…So they went back and got the spare key, and then my hubby had to call a guy to get into his car, cause well those were his only set of keys to that car……Well after all that we still managed to have a nice dinner….I ended up getting steaks when we were at walmart so my hubby grilled those up too, first they were still running blood and so he put them back on and they um well got a little extra well done, they were still edible though, so that’s good. 

Sunday

We had leftovers from yesterday, cause of course I always cook for an army so I usually either freeze the extra or we eat off it for a few meals.  We had the leftovers for breakfast and lunch and then me and my hubby went to dinner at boston market after dropping off Brandon with his mom.