1. A cross I made for my mother in law for mothers day. Here's where I got the idea
Saturday, July 20, 2013
A few Projects I've made
I have more projects I'll be adding but these are three projects that I took basically nothing and turned it into something.......from trash to treasure. I really enjoyed making each of these projects and I love researching different projects I can try. Love the idea of reusing and re purposing materials that would otherwise be tossed in the garbage and turning it into something beautiful or something use able.
1. A cross I made for my mother in law for mothers day. Here's where I got the idea
2. Paper Beads. How to make paper beads.
3. Ribbon Storage. Took a regular box and modpodged it, painted it, added holes, added dowels and voila ribbon storage.
1. A cross I made for my mother in law for mothers day. Here's where I got the idea
Thursday, June 27, 2013
update on herbalife diet and Venting about the past week of HELL
As of today 6-27-13 I have lost 16 pounds doing the herbalife diet, so I'm proud of myself no matter what horrible monsters might have to say.
I have not been doing it every single day, I have days that are "cheat" days, I save those days for days I'm going to be out and about and stuff, but even on those days I try to watch what I'm eating and not snack throughout the day. With the sleeve my problem isn't a big meal in one sitting, cause i really can't eat a really big meal with the sleeve, but you can end up snacking throughout the day which is not good, I have been trying to avoid snacking since I've been doing the herbalife diet, there have been times when I have gotten upset and snacked, unfortunately I'm an emotional eater and so that really sucks, but luckily this time it only lasted 2 days and I was able to pick myself back up and brush myself off and tell myself no I don't want monsters to cause me pain and put me down anymore, I'm better then them, and I need to just concentrate on myself and be proud of myself, and not worry about what anyone else thinks of me. People that only know how to put other people down obviously have very low self esteem and self worth.
I have been through a really tough week this past week, first one of my poor dogs gets horribly hurt, she sliced her side open and we never found what she hurt herself on and we looked all over the yard and house, luckily she's doing ok, she got stitches and stuff but she's a champ, she's so loving and sweet i hate that she got hurt like that, my poor little girl. Then the same week i get attacked by a monster of a woman, which you can read about in my previous blog.....She was a good friend of my mother in law's and i met her for all of 5 seconds, and she slammed me on facebook saying all kinds of horrible things about me mostly aimed at my weight. This woman did not look much smaller then me either and her daughter was also extremely overweight, but like i said before she most likely has no self esteem and no self worth to be talking horribly about people the way she did. The funny thing there were two other witnesses to the entire thing, the lady who's house we were at and my mother in law, and both thought that everything she wrote was utter garbage and lies, my husband even read it and told me that doesn't even sound anything like me. This woman made me out to be a monster just because i let her daughter know that i was already buying this bin from the lady and her daughter was going through everything putting her hands on everything, so yea i let her know (politely) that i already told the woman i was buying it, and of course that made me a monster telling her daughter she can't have something. My husband told me she's probably one of those women that never tells their child no, so how dare someone tell her daughter no. So because of that she attacked me viciously about my weight and that I was going to go and gorge on all the food I just bought and stupid things. First off all this stuff in the bins this woman sells is organic and healthy, everything in the bins consisted of nuts and olive oils and things like that, not junk food, not garbage, not something someone would sit down and gorge on even if they did stuff like that. Not to mention I also try to give away some of the stuff when i buy it, to a friend and to my mother in law if there's anything gluten free I always make sure and give it to my mother in law, and stuff, or if i have a lot of extras of something I give them away, I DO NOT gorge on olive oil and dry whole wheat pasta and coconut oil......hmmmm I don't know that anyone would gorge on that stuff, but ok. It was a really low blow too, this woman doesn't know anything about me, my doctors have told me not to kick myself if I don't loose the weight, I'm on so many meds and yea some of them can cause weight gain, my gastric sleeve doctor told me not to kick myself if i don't loose or even if i gain, that just try to keep my ms under control . My neurologist told me i can only workout/walk for 2-5 minutes a day, so yea that was an extremely low blow for that woman to say anything about my weight when I have been told by doctors to not worry about that that's the last thing i should worry about right now. This woman is just pathetic, and she's gotten into fights with my mother in laws other friends, and talks horribly about them behind their backs but yet they still want to stay friends with this monster, god knows why, with friends like her who needs enemies. Unfortunately my mother in law also said some bad things about me to this woman.....she wanted someone to vent to and she vented to a monster of a woman....I don't mind if she wants to vent about things that piss her off about me but please i beg of her to find a more trustworthy friend to do such things, I mean i have to vent about her at times and i have a friend that I trust 100% to never tell her things I'm venting about. One of the things that really pissed me off is she told this woman i don't let my husband drink sodas, and this woman went off on that, like its any of her business what I allow in my house. And by the way its not that i don't let my husband drink sodas, he made a promise to me when I had the gastric sleeve surgery that we would both quit sodas together, hell his mom has diabetes he really doesn't need the extra sugar so it really hurt me that she would say anything bitching about that kind of thing, and of course before this awful woman attacked me he was messing with me at my mother in laws house saying he wants a mountain dew.....and his mother knowing our agreement told him he's a grown man go get one if he wants one.....oh that pissed me off so much, I really wish he would have told her then and there about the promise he made to me but no he's to much of a chicken S*&^ so yea I'm made out to be a horrible monster because i don't allow my husband to have a mountain dew oh my god.........I have asked him to sit down and talk to her and let her know that when he says stupid things like he wants a soda while we're at her house that he's just messing with me.....and tell her that he made a promise to me and that means something.
So after all that crap....the very next day after getting attacked my that horrible woman.....i got taken out into the hallway at my stepsons birthday party and basically got scolded by his mom saying that I did this that and the other and I'm looking at her like what....and trying to explain myself and of course she wouldn't let me speak at all.......because whatever her son says is truth no matter what........well after that I sat my husband down and told him he better sit her down and tell her EVERYTHING. And finally after years and years of me telling him he needs to sit down and tell her everything he finally does.......and we find out that my stepson is a big giant liar to all of us and most of his anger and lies and put at me, that he's telling his mom i did this or that or said this or that that never happened and he comes to us telling us his mom did this or that or the other and that she says these horrible things about me all the time and that never happened.......she got him to admit he was lying about what she "attacked" me about at his party. It really makes me feel like utter crap to know that all those horrible things he said his mom said were actually coming from him......it was bad enough he was "repeating" stuff like that but for them to actually have come from him makes it that much worse and that much more painful for me. He was apparently trying to break me and my husband up in a really stupid manner, for some reason he thought talking horrible about me and his mom to each other would break us up and my husband would want to run back to her even though my stepson said all these horrible things about her.....he didn't really think that one threw very well. Sorry kid I'm in it for the long haul whether you like it or not. We're going through fertility treatments to try and have a baby and everything and he knows about that but yet he thought he could break us up by saying mean things about his mother....OMG its the most pathetic stupid ploy I have ever heard. But now because of all this we find out from his therapist he has dissociative disorder or something.....so now we have to coddle him and treat him like a baby.......after all the horrible things he said to and about me that part makes me extremely sick to my stomach, but I'll do what I have to do and just get through it. Oh and all that happened a week before we'll be getting him for a month.....so yea that's just the cherry on top of the big pile of sh$t
I have not been doing it every single day, I have days that are "cheat" days, I save those days for days I'm going to be out and about and stuff, but even on those days I try to watch what I'm eating and not snack throughout the day. With the sleeve my problem isn't a big meal in one sitting, cause i really can't eat a really big meal with the sleeve, but you can end up snacking throughout the day which is not good, I have been trying to avoid snacking since I've been doing the herbalife diet, there have been times when I have gotten upset and snacked, unfortunately I'm an emotional eater and so that really sucks, but luckily this time it only lasted 2 days and I was able to pick myself back up and brush myself off and tell myself no I don't want monsters to cause me pain and put me down anymore, I'm better then them, and I need to just concentrate on myself and be proud of myself, and not worry about what anyone else thinks of me. People that only know how to put other people down obviously have very low self esteem and self worth.
I have been through a really tough week this past week, first one of my poor dogs gets horribly hurt, she sliced her side open and we never found what she hurt herself on and we looked all over the yard and house, luckily she's doing ok, she got stitches and stuff but she's a champ, she's so loving and sweet i hate that she got hurt like that, my poor little girl. Then the same week i get attacked by a monster of a woman, which you can read about in my previous blog.....She was a good friend of my mother in law's and i met her for all of 5 seconds, and she slammed me on facebook saying all kinds of horrible things about me mostly aimed at my weight. This woman did not look much smaller then me either and her daughter was also extremely overweight, but like i said before she most likely has no self esteem and no self worth to be talking horribly about people the way she did. The funny thing there were two other witnesses to the entire thing, the lady who's house we were at and my mother in law, and both thought that everything she wrote was utter garbage and lies, my husband even read it and told me that doesn't even sound anything like me. This woman made me out to be a monster just because i let her daughter know that i was already buying this bin from the lady and her daughter was going through everything putting her hands on everything, so yea i let her know (politely) that i already told the woman i was buying it, and of course that made me a monster telling her daughter she can't have something. My husband told me she's probably one of those women that never tells their child no, so how dare someone tell her daughter no. So because of that she attacked me viciously about my weight and that I was going to go and gorge on all the food I just bought and stupid things. First off all this stuff in the bins this woman sells is organic and healthy, everything in the bins consisted of nuts and olive oils and things like that, not junk food, not garbage, not something someone would sit down and gorge on even if they did stuff like that. Not to mention I also try to give away some of the stuff when i buy it, to a friend and to my mother in law if there's anything gluten free I always make sure and give it to my mother in law, and stuff, or if i have a lot of extras of something I give them away, I DO NOT gorge on olive oil and dry whole wheat pasta and coconut oil......hmmmm I don't know that anyone would gorge on that stuff, but ok. It was a really low blow too, this woman doesn't know anything about me, my doctors have told me not to kick myself if I don't loose the weight, I'm on so many meds and yea some of them can cause weight gain, my gastric sleeve doctor told me not to kick myself if i don't loose or even if i gain, that just try to keep my ms under control . My neurologist told me i can only workout/walk for 2-5 minutes a day, so yea that was an extremely low blow for that woman to say anything about my weight when I have been told by doctors to not worry about that that's the last thing i should worry about right now. This woman is just pathetic, and she's gotten into fights with my mother in laws other friends, and talks horribly about them behind their backs but yet they still want to stay friends with this monster, god knows why, with friends like her who needs enemies. Unfortunately my mother in law also said some bad things about me to this woman.....she wanted someone to vent to and she vented to a monster of a woman....I don't mind if she wants to vent about things that piss her off about me but please i beg of her to find a more trustworthy friend to do such things, I mean i have to vent about her at times and i have a friend that I trust 100% to never tell her things I'm venting about. One of the things that really pissed me off is she told this woman i don't let my husband drink sodas, and this woman went off on that, like its any of her business what I allow in my house. And by the way its not that i don't let my husband drink sodas, he made a promise to me when I had the gastric sleeve surgery that we would both quit sodas together, hell his mom has diabetes he really doesn't need the extra sugar so it really hurt me that she would say anything bitching about that kind of thing, and of course before this awful woman attacked me he was messing with me at my mother in laws house saying he wants a mountain dew.....and his mother knowing our agreement told him he's a grown man go get one if he wants one.....oh that pissed me off so much, I really wish he would have told her then and there about the promise he made to me but no he's to much of a chicken S*&^ so yea I'm made out to be a horrible monster because i don't allow my husband to have a mountain dew oh my god.........I have asked him to sit down and talk to her and let her know that when he says stupid things like he wants a soda while we're at her house that he's just messing with me.....and tell her that he made a promise to me and that means something.
So after all that crap....the very next day after getting attacked my that horrible woman.....i got taken out into the hallway at my stepsons birthday party and basically got scolded by his mom saying that I did this that and the other and I'm looking at her like what....and trying to explain myself and of course she wouldn't let me speak at all.......because whatever her son says is truth no matter what........well after that I sat my husband down and told him he better sit her down and tell her EVERYTHING. And finally after years and years of me telling him he needs to sit down and tell her everything he finally does.......and we find out that my stepson is a big giant liar to all of us and most of his anger and lies and put at me, that he's telling his mom i did this or that or said this or that that never happened and he comes to us telling us his mom did this or that or the other and that she says these horrible things about me all the time and that never happened.......she got him to admit he was lying about what she "attacked" me about at his party. It really makes me feel like utter crap to know that all those horrible things he said his mom said were actually coming from him......it was bad enough he was "repeating" stuff like that but for them to actually have come from him makes it that much worse and that much more painful for me. He was apparently trying to break me and my husband up in a really stupid manner, for some reason he thought talking horrible about me and his mom to each other would break us up and my husband would want to run back to her even though my stepson said all these horrible things about her.....he didn't really think that one threw very well. Sorry kid I'm in it for the long haul whether you like it or not. We're going through fertility treatments to try and have a baby and everything and he knows about that but yet he thought he could break us up by saying mean things about his mother....OMG its the most pathetic stupid ploy I have ever heard. But now because of all this we find out from his therapist he has dissociative disorder or something.....so now we have to coddle him and treat him like a baby.......after all the horrible things he said to and about me that part makes me extremely sick to my stomach, but I'll do what I have to do and just get through it. Oh and all that happened a week before we'll be getting him for a month.....so yea that's just the cherry on top of the big pile of sh$t
Friday, June 21, 2013
Horrible people in the world
https://www.facebook.com/diane.canturico
This woman is absolute garbage. Uneducated piece of C@#$. She doesn't have any humanity in her, she's the absolute lowest form of garbage there is in the world. She is a nasty heartless, careless thing. I feel absoultely sorry for her daughter for having to live with a mother that is absolute garbage. She complains all the time about people whinning and complaining, yet she turns around and whines and complains about those people and says nasty things about everyone on her facebook including her own family. That is ultimate trash right there. She acts like one of those high school girls that are always mean to the big girls....but yet this B$$%# is a cow, she thinks she's all skinny and miss know all everything god, She's not, she's trash, and one day Karma will kick her in the rear and maybe then her eyes will open at the horrible way she treats people.
This woman is absolute garbage. Uneducated piece of C@#$. She doesn't have any humanity in her, she's the absolute lowest form of garbage there is in the world. She is a nasty heartless, careless thing. I feel absoultely sorry for her daughter for having to live with a mother that is absolute garbage. She complains all the time about people whinning and complaining, yet she turns around and whines and complains about those people and says nasty things about everyone on her facebook including her own family. That is ultimate trash right there. She acts like one of those high school girls that are always mean to the big girls....but yet this B$$%# is a cow, she thinks she's all skinny and miss know all everything god, She's not, she's trash, and one day Karma will kick her in the rear and maybe then her eyes will open at the horrible way she treats people.
Monday, June 3, 2013
My Herbalife Recipes
Note: I’m
not a distributor or anything, I just ordered my herbalife on amazon, so doing
it on my own, decided to try it after talking to a lady about it at a church
craft fair. The link for the herbalife
is just the generic main herbalife site.
Also I use Netrition for my Torani Syrup and PB2 and
other products because I have found them to be pretty decently priced and you
only have to pay one $4.95 Shipping and Handling fee for however much you order
so I think that’s pretty awesome.
Update: I have lost 10 pounds already in under a week.
Herbalife Drink Mix Recipes
Chocolate Peanut butter
Yumness
2 Scoops Herbalife Vanilla powder
1 Cup Skim
Milk (or liquid of choice)
½ Cup Ice
1 TBSP
Chocolate PB2
1 TBSP
Vanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup
1 TBSP
Chocolate Sugar Free Torani Syrup
1 TBSP Chia Seeds
Instructions:
Blend and Enjoy.
Note: I have a Vitamix and I absolutely love it, it makes
everything nice and smooth.
Acai Berry Goodness
2 Scoops Herbalife Vanilla Powder
1 Cup Skim
Milk (or liquid of choice)
½ cup Ice
½ Cup Frozen
Blueberries
1 scoop Acai Berry Freeze Dried Powder
Instructions:
Blend and Enjoy.
Note: I have a Vitamix and I absolutely love it, it makes
everything nice and smooth.
My Blue Heaven
½ Cup Milk
½ Cup Water
½ Cup Frozen
Blueberries
½ Cup Ice
½ TBSP Flax Seeds
½ TBSP Chia Seeds
2 Scoops Herbalife Powder
1 Scoop
Greens Gold
1 Scoop
Organic Freeze Dried Acai Powder
Instructions:
Blend and Enjoy
Strawberries and Milk
½ Cup Milk
½ Cup Water
4-5 Small or
1-3 Large Frozen Strawberries
½ Cup Frozen
Blueberries
½ Container
Strawberry Greek Yogurt
1 TBSP Flax Seed
1 TBSP Chia Seed
2 Scoops
Herbalife Powder Vanilla
1 Scoop
Greens Gold
1 Scoop Organic Freeze Dried Acai Powder
Instructions: Blend and Enjoy
Pineapple
Delight
½ cup water
½ cup milk
1 cup Ice
½ TBSP
Flax Seed
½ TBSP Chia Seed
2 Scoops
Vanilla Herbalife Powder
½ cup pineapple
chunks plus juice
½ container pineapple
flavored Greek Yogurt
Instructions:
Blend and Enjoy
No Milk Added
1 cup ice
1 cup water
½ cup Acai
Berry Juice
1 Scoop
Greens Gold
2 Scoops
Herbalife Vanilla Powder
1 TBSP pVanilla Sugar Free Torani Syrup
½ tbsp Chia Seeds
½ tbsp Flax Seeds
Instructions: Blend and Enjoy
Friday, May 31, 2013
Trip to Indiana and starting Herbalife
Just a quick little update
on what’s going on in my life; We went to Indiana for my stepsons wedding, it
was such a beautiful wedding, we all love his new wife, she’s the sweetest
person you’d ever meet. We were gone
about a week, stayed in Memphis on the way to and on the way back, first time
my husband and I have ever taken a vacation.
It was fun, did lots of shopping, found pay by the pound Goodwill's,
ended up getting 2 coach purses and 1 vintage Prada, which was pretty cool, and
went to antique malls, I love antique malls, they have such neat things, and
lots of hidden treasures. Found lots of
goody bags filled with jewelry and beads, I love going through that stuff and
sorting it into usable jewelry and stuff I can use for crafts, so that’s been
fun.
We got back a few days ago
and I decided way before the trip that I was going to start the Herbalife diet
when we got back. I got my shipment in
the mail yesterday and for the two days before I got it I used slim fast that we
already had in the house. We both gained
10 pounds on the trip, that’s what happens when you eat out for every meal for a week, yuck. Well I’m pleased with my results so far, in
just the three days I’ve taken off 8 of those pounds, so I’m really happy.
I’m going to be adding some
recipes for my Herbalife shakes in the next week or so, only made three so far,
I want a few more variations before I add the recipes.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
80 Questions
80 Questions
I was just surfing the web and ran across this page 80 questions, thought it sounded fun so here it goes I'm going to answer all 80 questions and then go to bed.
I was just surfing the web and ran across this page 80 questions, thought it sounded fun so here it goes I'm going to answer all 80 questions and then go to bed.
- Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed.
- Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Yes.
- Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Tucked under my feet only.
- Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No.
- Do you like to use post-it notes? Sure.
- Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? Of course.
- Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? This one is hard, I'm gonna say big bear, just get it over with lol.
- Do you have freckles? a few on my shoulders.
- Do you always smile for pictures? No.
- What is your biggest pet peeve? Rude People, that think they know everything about everything but won't actually sit down and do the research.
- Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Might have once or twice.
- Have you ever peed in the woods? When I was a kid.
- What about pooped in the woods? If I did it would have been when I was a kid but I don't remember, so not sure.
- Do you ever dance, even if there is no music playing? No, I have no rhythm even when there is music playing lol.
- Do you chew your pens and pencils? OMG I used to do this all the time when I was in school, the teachers would take my pencils away in elementary school, I've probably done it as an adult as well.
- What size is your bed? King Size.
- Is it ok for guys to wear pink? If they can pull it off more power to them.
- Do you still watch cartoons? Yes, just watched The Croods the other day, really loved it. And of course also watch Southpark, Family Guy, The Cleaveland Show, The Simpsons, loved the Rugrats when I was in High School.
- What's your least favorite movie? U-Turn uggg it was awful, I almost walked out of the theater when I saw that one.
- What do you drink with dinner? Water or Crystal lite.
- What do you dip a chicken nugget in? BBQ sauce or Sweet and Sour Sauce or Honey Mustard, depends on where I get the chicken nugget.
- What is your favorite food? Lemon Chicken.
- What movies could you watch over and over again and never get sick of them? Twilight, New Moon, Breaking Dawn, Eclipse, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
- Last person you kissed/kissed you? My Husband.
- Were you ever a girl scout? No.
- Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? If the price was right lol.
- When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? I have no clue, it's been awhile.
- Can you change the oil on a car? No.
- Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Nope.
- Ran out of gas? No.
- Favorite kind of sandwich? Leftover Thanksgiving Turkey Breast.
- Best thing to eat for breakfast? Egg Sausage Potato and Cheese Tacos.
- What is your usual bedtime? Bedtime...Whats That? lol Sometimes I try to go to sleep when my hubby does other times like tonight at almost reaching 1 am I just go to sleep when I feel like it, which I'll be doing when I'm finished with these questions.
- Are you lazy? I have MS some people might think that means I'm lazy but no, I'm just in pain or have really bad fatigue.
- When you were a kid what did you dress up as for Halloween? Only costumes I remember is once as a witch and once as either a vampire or a zombie not sure, with the plain jane costume it could have been either, just messed up my hair and wore black and put light colored makeup on.
- How many languages can you speak? 1.
- Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No, they're a waste of money, I usually just look at the pictures and don't read the articles, so I'll only get them every now and then.
- Which are better Legos or Lincoln Logs? Legos.
- Are you stubborn? Of Course.
- Ever watch soap operas? Not really, in college there was one I watched for a short time, don't remember which one it was though.
- Afraid of heights? Yea.
- Sing in the car? I hum in the car, and most of the time it ends up being a Christmas song lol, I don't know why.
- Dance in the shower? No.
- Dance in the car? If they're playing my Jam.
- Every used a gun? Just a water gun.
- Last time you got your portrait taken by a photographer? I think when I was 20, my dad had a bonfire with the picture......but that's another story.
- Do you think musicals are cheesy? No, I love musicals.
- Is Christmas stressful? YES.
- Ever eat a pierogi? Yes.
- Favorite type of fruit pie? Lemon.
- Take a vitamin daily? Yes.
- Wear slippers? No.
- Wear a bath robe? No.
- What do you wear to bed? Nothing.
- Wal-Mart, Target, or Kmart? Wal-mart.
- Nike or Adidas? Nike.
- Cheetos or Fritos? Cheetos.
- Peanuts or Sunflower Seeds? Sunflower Seeds.
- Ever take dance lessons? No.
- Ever won a spelling bee? No.
- Have you ever cried from happiness? Yes.
- Regularly burn incense? Eww No, They don't agree with me, they make me sick.
- Ever been in love? Yes.
- What was the last concert you saw? I have no idea, probably was when I was in High School one of the summer or winter jams.
- Hot tea or Cold tea? Cold Tea.
- Tea or Coffee? Either, but have to be in the mood for it.
- Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes.
- Are you patient? No.
- Ever won a contest? Yes.
- Ever have plastic surgery? No.
- Which are better, black or green olives? Don't care for either.
- Can you knit or crochet? No, but I'd like to learn.
- Do you want to get married? I am married.
- Do you have kids? No.
- What is your favorite color? Purple.
- Do you wear shoes in the house? No.
- Who would you call first if you won the lottery? My Husband.
- What's the first thing you do when you go online? Facebook.
- Do you like sushi? Yes, but only the deep fried kind.
- What are you doing tomorrow? I have a doctor's appointment, my yearly with my gastric sleeve doctor, not looking forward to it.
Craft Project #1 Key Holder
Last night I stayed up till about 1 am to work on a craft project, a key holder. I bought the key holder at a thrift store and knew I wanted to do something creative with it, I just hadn't gotten around to doing anything yet, so last night I decided to have a little fun with it, and broke out my crafts in my new craft room, well I've had the craft room since we moved into this house in June just re arranged it a bit this week so its a more effective and use-able space. Pictures to come later, of the craft room once its a bit more organized. I know my pictures aren't the best quality with the best background but I never claimed to be a professional, I'm just a bored housewife who likes to do crafts, hope to be adding more projects soon.
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| This is the beginning of my craft project, this is how it looked when I bought it. |
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| This is just another angle. |
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| This is the side. |
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| I took some all purpose red paint and brownish paint, mixed them with a little glitter and here's how that turned out. |
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| Modpodged a pretty shape that fit perfectly on both sides from some scrapbook paper I have. |
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| This is just another angle with it painted. |
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| Had to add some pretty bling. |
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| The finished side after modpodge dried. |
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| Another angle with the bling....not quite done yet. |
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| This is the Finished product with all its pretty bling. |
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| Just another Shot of the finished product, haven't hung it up yet, I'll have to take a picture when I hang it. |
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Living with MS part 2 and TTC
Well I had my second visit with my neurologist, anything they can do do help my symptoms they can't do because I'm trying to get pregnant and the meds aren't safe to take while trying to get pregnant, but also found out one of the meds to help my symptoms causes seizures if you don't take it exact, I'm sorry but F#$# that. I'd rather have the symptoms i have now then throw seizures on top of it, I suck at taking my pills at the exact same time every day i just can't seem to get in a habit of doing it and its a three time a day pill, so at this point in my disease i wouldn't take it even if i wasn't trying to get pregnant.
They had me do a walking test, the regular pace was OK, but then they have you go fast, ended up hurting my ankle, luckily only for a minute, and got really dizzy and spacey and lost my balance alot so that sucked but its part of this stupid sucky disease. I got really off balance when i had to walk putting one foot in front of the other, uggg, after all the walking and standing tests i felt out of it, dizzy, off balance, i basically felt drunk.....
My right leg has been hurting so much the past week or two, i don't know what to do, i was in bed crying last night in a lot of pain couldn't sleep it was awful. I can't really do much, I was going to spend the day out of my house today but only ended up spending a couple of hours out. I had a doctors appointment, and my mother in law picked me up after at my husbands work and i went to her house for a little bit, we watched a couple episodes of law and order svu and then went to lunch at Cheddars. Just doing that my leg hurt so much and my feet felt really heavy, so i just asked her to bring me home. We were going to join them at Jason's deli tonight for dinner with the ham club but just couldn't handle staying out for that many more hours, i was also starting to feel pretty fatigued which is just not fun at all.
Well onto another subject.....Had my OB appointment today, found out yet again I did not ovulate. My husband and I had discussed stopping for a couple of months if I wasn't pregnant this time, but we didn't end up talking to the OB about that, she told us she's going to up the dosage of Clomid up to 200 mg next time, so I'm just basically waiting to start my period. She said there's still a possibility that I ovulated later and the blood tests were done to soon or something, but I'm not holding my breadth. We were really hoping to be pregnant. The doctors say that being pregnant will help with the MS symptoms so that's a bonus, unfortunately after giving birth you have more of a chance of having an attack so that sucks. This was our fourth round on clomid, next step is injections, which I'm sure are expensive and we'd have to save up for. I haven't really noticed any real bad side effects from the clomid so that's good at least. I'm also taking Metformin, the ob said it would help too, of course i forget to take it sometimes though so that sucks, i usually take at least 2 a day, suppose to take 3 but i forget a lot. I'm also taking Maca which is just a natural thing, I don't know that much about it, people suggest it in trying to conceive groups and my OB said is was safe to take so why not, I'll try just about anything at this point. Me and my husband want to be parents so bad, it just seems so unfair that it hasn't happened. I was thinking about my baby that i lost last night when i went to sleep, There are days I wish i hadn't of ever gotten pregnant, and then i think then my baby would never have existed if even for a moment, I got to be happy for 5 days, and then that was it, I found out I was going to loose my baby and it took a toll on me and still does to this day. It just sucks that I still haven't gotten pregnant, its been over a year since the loss and nothing. I'd rather not get pregnant again then have to go through another loss, I just can't handle it. I need something happy in my life, all I've had has been pain, physical, mental, emotional, My entire life has just been heartbreak and pain, and trauma and just awfulness, the only good thing I have is my husband, and I just want to make us a family and have our own little baby.
My New House
They had me do a walking test, the regular pace was OK, but then they have you go fast, ended up hurting my ankle, luckily only for a minute, and got really dizzy and spacey and lost my balance alot so that sucked but its part of this stupid sucky disease. I got really off balance when i had to walk putting one foot in front of the other, uggg, after all the walking and standing tests i felt out of it, dizzy, off balance, i basically felt drunk.....
My right leg has been hurting so much the past week or two, i don't know what to do, i was in bed crying last night in a lot of pain couldn't sleep it was awful. I can't really do much, I was going to spend the day out of my house today but only ended up spending a couple of hours out. I had a doctors appointment, and my mother in law picked me up after at my husbands work and i went to her house for a little bit, we watched a couple episodes of law and order svu and then went to lunch at Cheddars. Just doing that my leg hurt so much and my feet felt really heavy, so i just asked her to bring me home. We were going to join them at Jason's deli tonight for dinner with the ham club but just couldn't handle staying out for that many more hours, i was also starting to feel pretty fatigued which is just not fun at all.
Well onto another subject.....Had my OB appointment today, found out yet again I did not ovulate. My husband and I had discussed stopping for a couple of months if I wasn't pregnant this time, but we didn't end up talking to the OB about that, she told us she's going to up the dosage of Clomid up to 200 mg next time, so I'm just basically waiting to start my period. She said there's still a possibility that I ovulated later and the blood tests were done to soon or something, but I'm not holding my breadth. We were really hoping to be pregnant. The doctors say that being pregnant will help with the MS symptoms so that's a bonus, unfortunately after giving birth you have more of a chance of having an attack so that sucks. This was our fourth round on clomid, next step is injections, which I'm sure are expensive and we'd have to save up for. I haven't really noticed any real bad side effects from the clomid so that's good at least. I'm also taking Metformin, the ob said it would help too, of course i forget to take it sometimes though so that sucks, i usually take at least 2 a day, suppose to take 3 but i forget a lot. I'm also taking Maca which is just a natural thing, I don't know that much about it, people suggest it in trying to conceive groups and my OB said is was safe to take so why not, I'll try just about anything at this point. Me and my husband want to be parents so bad, it just seems so unfair that it hasn't happened. I was thinking about my baby that i lost last night when i went to sleep, There are days I wish i hadn't of ever gotten pregnant, and then i think then my baby would never have existed if even for a moment, I got to be happy for 5 days, and then that was it, I found out I was going to loose my baby and it took a toll on me and still does to this day. It just sucks that I still haven't gotten pregnant, its been over a year since the loss and nothing. I'd rather not get pregnant again then have to go through another loss, I just can't handle it. I need something happy in my life, all I've had has been pain, physical, mental, emotional, My entire life has just been heartbreak and pain, and trauma and just awfulness, the only good thing I have is my husband, and I just want to make us a family and have our own little baby.
My New House
My View From My Backyard
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Living With MS
First off let me say Living with MS SUCKS.
I hate this disease and I hate the fears associated with this disease.
Everything is harder, I can't do the things I used to be able to do.
Doctors are now going to ASSume every symptom I complain about is MS even if its not.
I can't go grocery shopping without hurting.
Most places are to hot for me, even if they feel comfortable to someone else, its to hot for me, even just a half drop in my temperature and I "freak out" and my neurologist says this is NORMAL.
Whats NORMAL anymore?
Life as I once knew it is over, and all I have left is this shell of a life I'm living in.
I don't have my health.
When I get overheated it starts with pins and needles feeling all over my back, and then my hands start to swell and then the numbness that never went away in my hands gets worse, and more painful, and then my whole body starts to hurt, I have to get in cool air, infront of an airconditioner or fan in order for it to stop hurting, once my body temp goes back down I'm fine.
The action of simply walking hurts my hands and arms and back. I have a pretty big lesion right in the middle of my spine that swells whenever I do to much, and unfortionately to much is not very much, simply walking to the end of walmart to where the milk is can cause me pain.
My Brain is foggy, and I'm forgetful ALOT, this sucks. I'm pretty sure I've had the foggy brain since I was 25, things just started to seem more difficult. Its harder to concentrate or remember things I've read. Just playing a board game with my family gives me problems, the other day I was playing with my husband and stepson and I could never remember when it was my turn or who I went after, see the game we played before we went clockwise, but for some reason they decided to go counterclockwise with this second game and every single time it was another turn I'd have to ask if it was mine because I forgot who I went after, and that really sucks.
I'm scared of what the summer will bring the heat is very scary for me, although the winter isn't exactly the greatest either because to many places have their heaters way to hot even on days its not at all cold outside so going anywhere is like suffering because of the heat.
Itchiness sucks, your skin just feels yucky, no other way to really explain it.
My eyes go numb when I cry, think of when you go get your eyes dialated and that numbing stuff they put in there that feels just awful,well thats how my eyes get when I get emotional, it sucks.
My right leg throbs, I can't go to the movies without it hurting my leg, I always have to sit behind a bar so my legs can be up otherwise if that area is full of people I have to leave and get my money back because I just can't handle sitting in one of the chairs where I can't put my legs up. Which also means its hard for me to drive, haven't really driven much since I've been diagnosed back in aug, I only go to my therapist which is only about 5 min away, but today I found out driving about half an hour is way to much for me and my right leg starts throbbing so bad, it just hurts so much.
Just doing household chores is hard, folding hanging putting up laundry, can't do it all at once, have to take breaks in between so much.
Sweeping hurts my back. Doing the dishes feels awful on my hands because of the numbness. Touching towels or paper towels are just awful but you have to touch that stuff, but anything with texture hurts my hands and just feels awful.
I've been noticing a bit of balance issues, sort of walking like i'm drunk every now and then, that sucks, luckily I haven't had any falls, really not looking forward to that.
I get dizzy every now and then, the room starts spinning and I just have to close my eyes and put my head down, luckily this doesn't happen as often as it did when I first got out of the hospital.
Having to take daily injections really sucks, at least I have my husband to give them to me.
There are days that I just want to crawl into a hold and not come out. There are days I just cry and cry because of this awful disease. There are days when I ask why me? But then I think Why Anyone? This is an awful disease, and it has the ability to be all diseases in one, and can destroy someones life.
I'm afraid every day of the next attack, when it will be, what it will be, what new disability or symptoms or meds will i have to endure? I hate living my life every day in FEAR. I don't deserve this, no one deserves this disease. This is a living hell. All I can do is wait and pray that tomorrow I'll be ok. And maybe one day they'll find a cure.
I hate this disease and I hate the fears associated with this disease.
Everything is harder, I can't do the things I used to be able to do.
Doctors are now going to ASSume every symptom I complain about is MS even if its not.
I can't go grocery shopping without hurting.
Most places are to hot for me, even if they feel comfortable to someone else, its to hot for me, even just a half drop in my temperature and I "freak out" and my neurologist says this is NORMAL.
Whats NORMAL anymore?
Life as I once knew it is over, and all I have left is this shell of a life I'm living in.
I don't have my health.
When I get overheated it starts with pins and needles feeling all over my back, and then my hands start to swell and then the numbness that never went away in my hands gets worse, and more painful, and then my whole body starts to hurt, I have to get in cool air, infront of an airconditioner or fan in order for it to stop hurting, once my body temp goes back down I'm fine.
The action of simply walking hurts my hands and arms and back. I have a pretty big lesion right in the middle of my spine that swells whenever I do to much, and unfortionately to much is not very much, simply walking to the end of walmart to where the milk is can cause me pain.
My Brain is foggy, and I'm forgetful ALOT, this sucks. I'm pretty sure I've had the foggy brain since I was 25, things just started to seem more difficult. Its harder to concentrate or remember things I've read. Just playing a board game with my family gives me problems, the other day I was playing with my husband and stepson and I could never remember when it was my turn or who I went after, see the game we played before we went clockwise, but for some reason they decided to go counterclockwise with this second game and every single time it was another turn I'd have to ask if it was mine because I forgot who I went after, and that really sucks.
I'm scared of what the summer will bring the heat is very scary for me, although the winter isn't exactly the greatest either because to many places have their heaters way to hot even on days its not at all cold outside so going anywhere is like suffering because of the heat.
Itchiness sucks, your skin just feels yucky, no other way to really explain it.
My eyes go numb when I cry, think of when you go get your eyes dialated and that numbing stuff they put in there that feels just awful,well thats how my eyes get when I get emotional, it sucks.
My right leg throbs, I can't go to the movies without it hurting my leg, I always have to sit behind a bar so my legs can be up otherwise if that area is full of people I have to leave and get my money back because I just can't handle sitting in one of the chairs where I can't put my legs up. Which also means its hard for me to drive, haven't really driven much since I've been diagnosed back in aug, I only go to my therapist which is only about 5 min away, but today I found out driving about half an hour is way to much for me and my right leg starts throbbing so bad, it just hurts so much.
Just doing household chores is hard, folding hanging putting up laundry, can't do it all at once, have to take breaks in between so much.
Sweeping hurts my back. Doing the dishes feels awful on my hands because of the numbness. Touching towels or paper towels are just awful but you have to touch that stuff, but anything with texture hurts my hands and just feels awful.
I've been noticing a bit of balance issues, sort of walking like i'm drunk every now and then, that sucks, luckily I haven't had any falls, really not looking forward to that.
I get dizzy every now and then, the room starts spinning and I just have to close my eyes and put my head down, luckily this doesn't happen as often as it did when I first got out of the hospital.
Having to take daily injections really sucks, at least I have my husband to give them to me.
There are days that I just want to crawl into a hold and not come out. There are days I just cry and cry because of this awful disease. There are days when I ask why me? But then I think Why Anyone? This is an awful disease, and it has the ability to be all diseases in one, and can destroy someones life.
I'm afraid every day of the next attack, when it will be, what it will be, what new disability or symptoms or meds will i have to endure? I hate living my life every day in FEAR. I don't deserve this, no one deserves this disease. This is a living hell. All I can do is wait and pray that tomorrow I'll be ok. And maybe one day they'll find a cure.
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