My First Round of Clomid

Well we had our first round of fertility meds this month, or technically last month, Cycle started November 12, 2012, started clomid 50 mg November 15, 2012.  I don't think I'm pregnant, I'm having all the symptoms that I'm going to start my period.  The fertility doctor did give us hope though, we went in for blood tests last week and saw her Monday, she said it looked like we ovulated and my progesterone levels are where they should be to get pregnant, so that's good news, and made us both happy.  I don't want to get down and discouraged because I'm not pregnant the first try, I keep telling myself don't get upset, try to be happy, the doctor is helping and telling us everything is working good, we just gotta wait and see what happens.  So if I'm not pregnant this time, we go back to see the fertility doctor on the third day of my new cycle.  That's when she's going to start us on 100 mg of Clomid, I've been praying, and praying, not only to be pregnant but to have a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby that lives to a ripe old age.  I want to be a mom more then anything in the world, I just have to put it in God's hands and pray that everything works out for us.  This month is hard, last year I found out I was pregnant on December 15, 2011, only to find out I was going to loose my baby on December 20, 2011, I only got 5 days to enjoy my pregnancy, I was so happy for that five days, it meant the world to me to finally be pregnant after trying for so long.  Then for that baby to be torn away from me was the worst pain I've ever endured.  The baby I lost will always have a special place in my heart, I will always remember them even though I never got to hold them in my arms, I held them inside me.  I know one day I'll get to hold that baby, I know there's people up in Heaven looking after them till I get there.  The only solace I had in it was that it was an early miscarriage, not that it makes it any less painful, but it was less extreme on my body mind and soul.  I had just minor spotting.  My HCG levels started dropping the doctors didn't know why, I wasn't treated to good by the doctors either....I've since changed OB's.  It took about 2 to 3 months of weekly blood tests for the miscarriage to finally be over, that was extremely difficult on me having to go there and see all the pregnant women in the waiting room, it was so heartbreaking.  The only bleeding I had was for about 5 days of spotting when we first found out we were going to loose the baby, after that I didn't have a period till one month after my HCG levels came back normal.  We've been trying since then with no luck, so we decided to go back to the fertility doctor we saw two years ago, before I had the gastric sleeve surgery she was trying to help us, back then I wasn't having periods or ovulating, I'm now having regular periods and by the sound of it ovulating, so hopefully with the meds we'll conceive a healthy happy baby.