Picking up the Pieces

Well I've began to get my life back together, "picking up the pieces" of a broken me.  I've had some tough times the past 6 months, been heartbreaking and traumatic and painful, and numbing.  Now I'm finally able to get back on track, I've started working out again, I've been to the gym everyday this week, Mon, Tues, wed, Thurs.  I was sure on Monday that i was only going to be able to do max of 10 min on the elliptical and then be to worn out to do anymore....well 10 minutes goes by like a breeze, and i ended up doing 33 minutes and 2 miles, then Tues i did 40 min and 2.4 miles, wed i had a doc appointment and other things going on but still managed to get to the gym and had time to do 30 min and 1.6 miles, Thurs was the best, i was able to do 60 min 3.6 miles, i have never been able to do that much without taking breaks in between i was so proud of myself, and not one single day was i to sore or anything, i felt good, i did water aerobics/swimming after each workout and moved in the pool the entire time tried to be in the pool for 40 min to an hour each day, the day i had the doc appointment i was only able to do 20 min, but still moved my butt off in the pool.  Then after all that working out Monday and Thursday i still had energy to go grocery shopping and parked further away for that extra walk, and on Monday even ran back to my car, me running wow, that was really amazing, I'm going to have to start going to the park with my step son and we can run around the park together and my hubby will be left behind, poor babe he gets all upset when we leave him behind, so we try to slow down for him and then he'll cheat and take shortcuts....he's so bad.  The food is still a little bit of an issue, not eating as bad as i was when i was going through severe depression though so that's good, just eating a few to many high calorie snacks, i really have a weakness for peanut butter and chocolate, I don't eat any chewy or hard candies those hurt me alot, no skittles, lolly pops, star burst, twizzlers everything like that hurts inside my stomach, so i stay away from that stuff which is really good, but unfortunately chocolate goes down without a problem, but i try not to keep it in my house, the problem is i spend a lot of time at my mother in laws and she really loves her candy, so she's got a cookie jar type of thing filled with mini candy bars, i usually try to stay away but when I'm there the entire day they start calling my name, especially the Reece's cups, most of the other stuff i can avoid most of the time, but like i said peanut butter and chocolate are my weakness.
Well I've lost 4 pounds this week so I'm very happy, I can't wait to get into our new house, I'm going to make a healthy menu plan each week and hopefully follow it.  Plus I'll be making more of a routine schedule for my day to day activities including working out.  I have an elliptical at home and wii fit and tons of videos so some days i can work out at home and some days I'll go to the gym and right now is the best going to the gym cause they have an indoor pool which i love, its a bit of a drive about 40 minutes away or so, but its worth it for that indoor pool and plus when i go to the gym i try to "kill 2 or 3 birds with 1 stone" so I'll go to the gym and then go to a grocery store that's only in that area, Aldis for example they have some really good prices but the one around my gym is the closest to us, and also going to the movies or the mall after working out is great too the mall is like across the street from my gym so its perfect, some days i get dropped off at my mother in laws and we do a whole day together which I'm going to start adding the gym into our routine.  I can have my hubby drop me off at the gym and my mother in law can meet me there, and we can workout together or go swimming together, and then we usually have a nice day out where we go to the movies and lunch sometimes with other friends too which is nice, and then we just hang for a while and Tues and wed we have ham radio get together and wed pot luck at church, oh pot luck at church is going to be my cheat day cause they always have such good food, and i bring dessert typically since i live kinda far its hard to bring hot food, so i figure if i see a really neat dessert recipe that i want to try but i don't want to end up with so much at my house for us to eat its perfect to make it for the potluck and then i can only have a small amount and the rest gets eaten up for the  most part, so far I've had enough to save for my stepson for Fridays which he likes.
Well that's all i have for now, I'm going to try to start writing in this blog again on a regular basis.

End of the month goals from october and November new goal

Goal for October drink more water, and go 45 miles on the elliptical. 

End of month goals, have been drinking a ton of water, I’m sure I’m getting in my proper amount, and didn’t quite make the 45 mile goal but I think I still did good considering the beginning of the month I couldn’t even go a mile and by the end of the month I could go 3 miles.  My weekly counts start on the first of the month and end on the Saturday, with the last one ending on the last day of the month, so some of the weeks are only a day or two.

Week 1 .8 miles

Week 2 7.7 Miles

Week 3 5.4 Miles

Week 4 9.4 Miles

Week 5 7.7 Miles

Week 6 2 Miles

Total for October: 34 Miles

New Goal for November

Go 50 miles on the elliptical.

Loose at least 5 pounds, (my weight loss as been non existent the past few monthes) Would love to get down to 266 so then I can have bragging rights over loosing 100 pounds. 

Support Group Meeting

Well I went to my support group meeting Wednesday, hadn't been in 2 months since i was out of town for 1 of those months and extremely depressed for the other month, didn't want to go anywhere or do anything.  I'm doing a lot better now.  The support group was nice, I found out that my stall is normal, I'm right on Que for when people end up stalling, but it looks like its starting to go back down, and I've been working out everyday just about, I really enjoy doing the elliptical, just sometimes i need a take a break cause my knees get to sore, but it seems Tylenol really helps with the pain, which is nice.  Well this meeting they had us all introduce ourselves and tell a little about ourselves, i got so nervous and i was towards the end so i had to wait that entire time thinking about what i was going to say and getting all nervous uggg, i hate that feeling, i never liked to talk in school either.  Well when they got to me i said my name and what surgery i had and when i had surgery and how much i lost and the best part when i said how much i lost everyone was like wow and cool, and stuff so i thought that was the best part of it, i also mentioned that i use the elliptical everyday and i use myfitnesspal to track food and exercise.  I ended up scoring 8 blouses and 7 bottoms and 1 dress from the meeting, i love that we can trade clothes there, it makes it a lot cheaper then having to go buy new clothes every time your size changes, everything looks nice and new and is name brand stuff, so I'm really happy, I also took a bag of clothes that doesn't fit me anymore so someone else will be able to use those.  They also had these ladies that make healthy meals for you, but they have extremely expensive prices, so I'd rather just cook at home, about 6-9 dollars per meal, so crazy expensive, they had samples, their food was pretty good, but no way do we have that kind of money.  They also gave us two sample meals which was cool, we ended up having those for dinner last night, the grilled zucchini was really good, not a fan of the squash though, they were both chicken dishes, one came with a little BBQ sauce that was pretty spicy and the other came with this white sauce that tasted like cucumbers, we ended up splitting both meals so we could both try each others, and the funny part is i liked the one my husband chose better and he liked the one i chose better, so I'm really glad i decided to split them both.

Goal

My Goal for the month of October is to go 45 miles on my elliptical.  I've been doing pretty good so far, only 4 days in, done it every day.  Time is getting better, going further in shorter times.  Started at only being able to do 6 minutes 2 weeks ago, last week was able to do 15 minutes and this week doing 20 minutes each time, hoping to be up to 30 soon, i'll try to up the minutes by a couple this week, I try to do it at least 1-3 times a day, since i've upped the time to 20 minutes i've only done it once a day, cause its a bit harder on my legs, but hopefully after a few days i'll get more used to it and be able to do it 2-3 times  a day.  Plus i do workouts with a medicine ball, and i've been active in cleaning my house....was depressed for an entire month and it got wayyyy away from me, but i got more energy and i'm more focused and trying to get things done.
The doctors say everything looks good, all my test results are good, and they couldn't see any fibroid tumors, so hopefully when its time to get pregnant I'll get pregnant with no problems, that would be a miracle, and my ultimate goal. 

Whats going on right now

Well i weighed myself this morning i'm 274, which is good, cause i've been stuck at 277 for like the past month, and finally it seems to be starting to go down more.  I got an elliptical last weekend, so i've been starting to use that, but i had to start out slow, cause i hadn't worked out in 2 monthes, the first month because i was out of town for most of the month and the second month cause i was really depressed and not really caring about anything, i wasn't eating good, i was eating horribly actually, and i certainly wasn't exercising, and now i got my schedule all out of wack, and it takes a while to get it back in tune, i like having the schedule where i go to sleep with my husband and then wake up when he's leaving for work, that schedule keeps me feeling the best, when i get to much sleep which i've been getting lately i feel crappy and just plain uggg and blah.  So i really need to try to fix my schedule.
I cut off all my hair or at least most of it, have a really short do, and i died it bleach blonde, but it came out a little orangeish.  I like it, i like to try new cuts and colors and things with my hair, i figure it'll grow back anyways....i really like it short like this though, when its long all i ever want to do it wear it in a ponytail cause i don't like the feeling of my hair on the back of my neck. I'll add photos in another post i haven't put them on my computer yet. 

6 Week follow up and missed the support group meeting

Well today was my 6 week follow up and they said I'm doing great, that i had pretty high weight loss compared to most of their patients for the first 6 weeks, so that's pretty cool. 
Oh tonight was suppose to be the monthly support group meeting, but unfortunately we had to skip it, because well we would have been stuck in Plano all day which is about an hour and a half away from where we live, its where my surgeon is and where the support group meeting is.  We went to lunch and then afterwards went to the mall to try to kill some time, had about 6 hours to kill till the support group meeting.  Well we tried to buy a bottle of water and they denied our debit card, and we're like what the hell, and we called the bank and found out we only had like 3 dollars or something in the bank,when last night i had checked and we had a little over 100, so we decided it was best to skip the support group meeting cause it would have put us at getting home after 10 pm and we couldn't have gone all day like that with no food or water, so we came home and checked our bank account and it was because of a bill i paid 2 weeks ago finally decided to take itself out, so that sucked really bad, we're paying that bill from now on in person, cause that's pretty ridiculous, it was the first time we had paid it through our online bill pay, and never again, i couldn't believe it, so yea luckily tomorrow is pay day, but it still sucks i had to miss the meeting, oh well, there's always next month. 
Monday i went to the gym and the pool was closed, so a 45 minute drive to find out the pool was closed was pretty dang annoying, but i was already planning on trying the elliptical that day, and i did, and i was able to do it for 15 minutes, which 60 pounds heavier i was only able to do it for 30 seconds and then my legs went into spasms, but this time i was able to do 15 minutes and was really wobbly went i got off, and wobbly for the rest of the day, and then the next day i woke up barely able to walk, today was a little better though, still a bit sore but not as bad, I'm still gonna try it again on Friday, tomorrow the pool is closed for cleaning so I'm not gonna drive all that way again just to do 15 min elliptical.