80 Questions

80 Questions

I was just surfing the web and ran across this page 80 questions, thought it sounded fun so here it goes I'm going to answer all 80 questions and then go to bed.

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed.
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?  Yes.
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?  Tucked under my feet only.
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No.
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? Sure.
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? Of course.
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? This one is hard, I'm gonna say big bear, just get it over with lol.
8. Do you have freckles?  a few on my shoulders.
9. Do you always smile for pictures? No.
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? Rude People, that think they know everything about everything but won't actually sit down and do the research.
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?  Might have once or twice.
12. Have you ever peed in the woods? When I was a kid.
13. What about pooped in the woods?  If I did it would have been when I was a kid but I don't remember, so not sure.
14. Do you ever dance, even if there is no music playing?  No, I have no rhythm even when there is music playing lol.
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? OMG I used to do this all the time when I was in school, the teachers would take my pencils away in elementary school, I've probably done it as an adult as well.
16. What size is your bed? King Size.
17. Is it ok for guys to wear pink? If they can pull it off more power to them.
18. Do you still watch cartoons? Yes, just watched The Croods the other day, really loved it. And of course also watch Southpark, Family Guy, The Cleaveland Show, The Simpsons, loved the Rugrats when I was in High School.
19. What's your least favorite movie?  U-Turn uggg it was awful, I almost walked out of the theater when I saw that one.
20. What do you drink with dinner?  Water or Crystal lite.
21. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?  BBQ sauce or Sweet and Sour Sauce or Honey Mustard, depends on where I get the chicken nugget.
22. What is your favorite food? Lemon Chicken.
23. What movies could you watch over and over again and never get sick of them?  Twilight, New Moon, Breaking Dawn, Eclipse, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
24. Last person you kissed/kissed you?  My Husband.
25. Were you ever a girl scout?  No.
26. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?  If the price was right lol.
27. When was the last time  you wrote a letter to someone on paper? I have no clue, it's been awhile.
28. Can you change the oil on a car? No.
29. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Nope.
30. Ran out of gas? No.
31. Favorite kind of sandwich?  Leftover Thanksgiving Turkey Breast.
32. Best thing to eat for breakfast? Egg Sausage Potato and Cheese Tacos.
33. What is your usual bedtime?  Bedtime...Whats That? lol Sometimes I try to go to sleep when my hubby does other times like tonight at almost reaching 1 am I just go to sleep when I feel like it, which I'll be doing when I'm finished with these questions.
34. Are you lazy? I have MS some people might think that means I'm lazy but no, I'm just in pain or have really bad fatigue.
35. When you were a kid what did you dress up as for Halloween?  Only costumes I remember is once as a witch and once as either a vampire or a zombie not sure, with the plain jane costume it could have been either, just messed up my hair and wore black and put light colored makeup on.
36. How many languages can you speak? 1.
37. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No, they're a waste of money, I usually just look at the pictures and don't read the articles, so I'll only get them every now and then.
38. Which are better Legos or Lincoln Logs?  Legos.
39. Are you stubborn? Of Course.
40. Ever watch soap operas?  Not really, in college there was one I watched for a short time, don't remember which one it was though.
41. Afraid of heights? Yea.
42. Sing in the car?  I hum in the car, and most of the time it ends up being a Christmas song lol, I don't know why.
43. Dance in the shower?  No.
44. Dance in the car? If they're playing my Jam.
45. Every used a gun?   Just a water gun.
46. Last time you got your portrait taken by a photographer? I think when I was 20, my dad had a bonfire with the picture......but that's another story.
47. Do you think musicals are cheesy? No, I love musicals.
48. Is Christmas stressful?  YES.
49. Ever eat a pierogi?   Yes.
50. Favorite type of fruit pie?  Lemon.
51. Take a vitamin daily?  Yes.
52. Wear slippers?  No.
53. Wear a bath robe?  No.
54. What do you wear to bed?   Nothing.
55. Wal-Mart, Target, or Kmart?  Wal-mart.
56. Nike or Adidas? Nike.
57. Cheetos or Fritos? Cheetos.
58. Peanuts or Sunflower Seeds?  Sunflower Seeds.
59. Ever take dance lessons?  No.
60. Ever won a spelling bee? No.
61. Have you ever cried from happiness?  Yes.
62. Regularly burn incense? Eww No, They don't agree with me, they make me sick. 
63. Ever been in love? Yes.
64. What was the last concert you saw? I have no idea, probably was when I was in High School one of the summer or winter jams.
65. Hot tea or Cold tea?  Cold Tea.
66. Tea or Coffee?  Either, but have to be in the mood for it.
67. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes.
68. Are you patient?  No.
69. Ever won a contest?  Yes.
70. Ever have plastic surgery?  No.
71. Which are better, black or green olives?   Don't care for either.
72. Can you knit or crochet?  No, but I'd like to learn.
73. Do you want to get married?  I am married.
74. Do you have kids?  No.
75. What is your favorite color?  Purple.
76. Do you wear shoes in the house? No.
77. Who would you call first if you won the lottery?  My Husband.
78. What's the first thing you do when you go online? Facebook.
79. Do you like sushi?  Yes, but only the deep fried kind.
80. What are you doing tomorrow?  I have a doctor's appointment, my yearly with my gastric sleeve doctor, not looking forward to it.

Craft Project #1 Key Holder

Last night I stayed up till about 1 am to work on a craft project, a key holder.  I bought the key holder at a thrift store and knew I wanted to do something creative with it, I just hadn't gotten around to doing anything yet, so last night I decided to have a little fun with it, and broke out my crafts in my new craft room, well I've had the craft room since we moved into this house in June just re arranged it a bit this week so its a more effective and use-able space.  Pictures to come later, of the craft room once its a bit more organized.  I know my pictures aren't the best quality with the best background but I never claimed to be a professional, I'm just a bored housewife who likes to do crafts, hope to be adding more projects soon.

                   

This is the beginning of my craft project, this is how it looked when I bought it.

This is just another angle.

This is the side.

I took some all purpose red paint and brownish paint, mixed
them with a little glitter and here's how that turned out.

Modpodged a pretty shape that fit perfectly on both sides from
some scrapbook paper I have.

This is just another angle with it painted.

Had to add some pretty bling.

The finished side after modpodge dried.

Another angle with the bling....not quite done yet.

This is the Finished product with all its pretty bling.

Just another Shot of the finished product, haven't hung it up
yet, I'll have to take a picture when I hang it.

Living with MS part 2 and TTC

Well I had my second visit with my neurologist, anything they can do do help my symptoms they can't do because I'm trying to get pregnant and the meds aren't safe to take while trying to get pregnant, but also found out one of the meds to help my symptoms causes seizures if you don't take it exact, I'm sorry but F#$# that.  I'd rather have the symptoms i have now then throw seizures on top of it, I suck at taking my pills at the exact same time every day i just can't seem to get in a habit of doing it and its a three time a day pill, so at this point in my disease i wouldn't take it even if i wasn't trying to get pregnant.  
They had me do a walking test, the regular pace was OK, but then they have you go fast, ended up hurting my ankle, luckily only for a minute, and got really dizzy and spacey and lost my balance alot so that sucked but its part of this stupid sucky disease.  I got really off balance when i had to walk putting one foot in front of the other, uggg, after all the walking and standing tests i felt out of it, dizzy, off balance, i basically felt drunk.....
My right leg has been hurting so much the past week or two, i don't know what to do, i was in bed crying last night in a lot of pain couldn't sleep it was awful.  I can't really do much, I was going to spend the day out of my house today but only ended up spending a couple of hours out.  I had a doctors appointment, and my  mother in law picked me up after at my husbands work and i went to her house for a little bit, we watched a couple episodes of law and order svu and then went to lunch at Cheddars.  Just doing that my leg hurt so much and my feet felt really heavy, so i just asked her to bring me home. We were going to join them at Jason's deli tonight for dinner with the ham club but just couldn't handle staying out for that many more hours, i was also starting to feel pretty fatigued which is just not fun at all.  

Well onto another subject.....Had my OB appointment today, found out yet again I did not ovulate.  My husband and I had discussed stopping for a couple of months if I wasn't pregnant this time, but we didn't end up talking to the OB about that, she told us she's going to up the dosage of Clomid up to 200 mg next time, so I'm just basically waiting to start my period.  She said there's still a possibility that I ovulated later and the blood tests were done to soon or something, but I'm not holding my breadth.  We were really hoping to be pregnant.  The doctors say that being pregnant will help with the MS symptoms so that's a bonus, unfortunately after giving birth you have more of a chance of having an attack so that sucks.  This was our fourth round on clomid, next step is injections, which I'm sure are expensive and we'd have to save up for.  I haven't really noticed any real bad side effects from the clomid so that's good at least.  I'm also taking Metformin, the ob said it would help too, of course i forget to take it sometimes though so that sucks, i usually take at least 2 a day, suppose to take 3 but i forget a lot.  I'm also taking Maca which is just a natural thing, I don't know that much about it, people suggest it in trying to conceive groups and my OB said is was safe to take so why not, I'll try just about anything at this point.  Me and my husband want to be parents so bad, it just seems so unfair that it hasn't happened.  I was thinking about my baby that i lost last night when i went to sleep, There are days I wish i hadn't of ever gotten pregnant, and then i think then my baby would never have existed if even for a moment, I got to be happy for 5 days, and then that was it, I found out I was going to loose my baby and it took a toll on me and still does to this day.  It just sucks that I still haven't gotten pregnant, its been over a year since the loss and nothing.  I'd rather not get pregnant again then have to go through another loss, I just can't handle it.  I need something happy in my life, all I've had has been pain, physical, mental, emotional, My entire life has just been heartbreak and pain, and trauma and just awfulness, the only good thing I have is my husband, and I just want to make us a family and have our own little baby.  

                        My New House

My View From My Backyard

Living With MS

First off let me say Living with MS SUCKS.
I hate this disease and I hate the fears associated with this disease.
Everything is harder, I can't do the things I used to be able to do.
Doctors are now going to ASSume every symptom I complain about is MS even if its not.
I can't go grocery shopping without hurting.
Most places are to hot for me, even if they feel comfortable to someone else, its to hot for me, even just a half drop in my temperature and I "freak out" and my neurologist says this is NORMAL.
Whats NORMAL anymore?
Life as I once knew it is over, and all I have left is this shell of a life I'm living in.
I don't have my health.
When I get overheated it starts with pins and needles feeling all over my back, and then my hands start to swell and then the numbness that never went away in my hands gets worse, and more painful, and then my whole body starts to hurt, I have to get in cool air, infront of an airconditioner or fan in order for it to stop hurting, once my body temp goes back down I'm fine.
The action of simply walking hurts my hands and arms and back.  I have a pretty big lesion right in the middle of my spine that swells whenever I do to much, and unfortionately to much is not very much, simply walking to the end of walmart to where the milk is can cause me pain.
My Brain is foggy, and I'm forgetful ALOT, this sucks.  I'm pretty sure I've had the foggy brain since I was 25, things just started to seem more difficult.  Its harder to concentrate or remember things I've read.  Just playing a board game with my family gives me problems, the other day I was playing with my husband and stepson and I could never remember when it was my turn or who I went after, see the game we played before we went clockwise, but for some reason they decided to go counterclockwise with this second game and every single time it was another turn I'd have to ask if it was mine because I forgot who I went after, and that really sucks.
I'm scared of what the summer will bring the heat is very scary for me, although the winter isn't exactly the greatest either because to many places have their heaters way to hot even on days its not at all cold outside so going anywhere is like suffering because of the heat.
Itchiness sucks, your skin just feels yucky, no other way to really explain it.
My eyes go numb when I cry, think of when you go get your eyes dialated and that numbing stuff they put in there that feels just awful,well thats how my eyes get when I get emotional, it sucks.
My right leg throbs, I can't go to the movies without it hurting my leg, I always have to sit behind a bar so my legs can be up otherwise if that area is full of people I have to leave and get my money back because I just can't handle sitting in one of the chairs where I can't put my legs up.  Which also means its hard for me to drive, haven't really driven much since I've been diagnosed back in aug, I only go to my therapist which is only about 5 min away, but today I found out driving about half an hour is way to much for me and my right leg starts throbbing so bad, it just hurts so much.
Just doing household chores is hard, folding hanging putting up laundry, can't do it all at once, have to take breaks in between so much.
Sweeping hurts my back.  Doing the dishes feels awful on my hands because of the numbness.  Touching towels or paper towels are just awful but you have to touch that stuff, but anything with texture hurts my hands and just feels awful.
I've been noticing a bit of balance issues, sort of walking like i'm drunk every now and then, that sucks, luckily I haven't had any falls, really not looking forward to that.
I get dizzy every now and then, the room starts spinning and I just have to close my eyes and put my head down, luckily this doesn't happen as often as it did when I first got out of the hospital.
Having to take daily injections really sucks, at least I have my husband to give them to me.
There are days that I just want to crawl into a hold and not come out.  There are days I just cry and cry because of this awful disease.  There are days when I ask why me?  But then I think Why Anyone?  This is an awful disease, and it has the ability to be all diseases in one, and can destroy someones life.
I'm afraid every day of the next attack, when it will be, what it will be, what new disability or symptoms or meds will i have to endure?  I hate living my life every day in FEAR.  I don't deserve this, no one deserves this disease.  This is a living hell.  All I can do is wait and pray that tomorrow I'll be ok.  And maybe one day they'll find a cure.